you had me at chicken wings

Hi to everyone that is about to tune into my story, i'm sure you are thinking how does the famous and legendary singer OSH manage to fit into my story of chicken wings and a mystery man? well, if you keep reading you are about to discover a very unique story that i have to tell you all, you will not regret the next 5-10 minutes you're about to give me.

If you told me last year that i would find myself in a happy and positive place i would have literally laughed in your face and probably told you to 'fuck off', there was no way i was going to be in a positive place, my life was one big mess, it was like i had bought myself a brand new blender, thrown all my issues into the blender along with everyone in my life and then just decided to jump in there myself (do not ask me how i would have turned on the blender), but yeah.. my life was literally being blended into a smoothie, the type of smoothie that you would just automatically throw down the toilet and never speak of again. I can't really go into the details of what was going on in my life as i feel like this isn't the right place to speak about it, but i needed to get out of this head space IMMEDIATELY.

Let me skip to this year, i just got out of a very long and toxic relationship, i am not going to write bad about him out of respect (even though, quite frankly he really doesn't deserve my respect), BUT, my mumma raised me better then that, but i was really lost, i was seeking attention in all the wrong places if i'm honest with you, love was something that i no longer had an interest in, in all honesty, love broke me into a thousand pieces. The saying that i always used to stand by was; 'a broken mirror can be fixed but it will never be perfect again', i used to believe this and i still do, but what you can do is do your best to make that mirror perfect again, because at the end of the day, we all come with scars, deep pasts, secrets and hurt, no one is perfect, so i'm okay with being a little broken.

The ways that i tried to fix my broken self was to find myself, discover what i love, discover my own thoughts and to find the version of me that i really loved.

I always get asked the question; 'Beth, how am i ever going to find love'? or 'i am so fed up of waiting for someone to come into my life', that's the point, YOU DO NOT LOOK FOR LOVE, it will come to you when you are not looking for it, that's the best type of love, the one's that just come into your life and basically hit you in the face, like a bus hitting you full speed.. (gruesome thought.. i know.. oh wow.. ) well anyway i like it so i am leaving it in here, you can choose to imagine this how you like. But for me, i didn't believe in love anymore, that's very depressing for someone so young like myself, however i was broken, like i already said.

Valentines day passed.. well.. it passed hahaha, in all honesty, that's a private thought and memory that i will keep to myself, it's not part of the story. SO, not long after valentines day OSH, if you do not know who he is then please bless your ears with his beautiful music, he was releasing his new song 'excuse me miss' and i was very excited for this, i had been waiting a long time and he put up a post on his instagram saying that the first 100 people to message him would get a preview of his song before anyone else, OF COURSE i messaged him because i had heard snippets of the song and really wanted to hear the full version, so he ended up sending me the song and i wanted to post me doing one of them cringy sing along videos but i couldn't bring myself to do it, i am just not THAT person, sorry but really not sorry at all, shoutout to you though OSH, your song is what brought me and the mystery guy together.

Although i support OSH i looked at his story the day that he was sending out snippets to people and it was LONG, longer then the ques for the shops during this time, i was not about to watch all of them, but something inside me was like 'just have a little look ya bish' so i did, everyone was lip syncing to OSH's new song, loved the energy but it was all the same thing, good looking guys, beautiful girls etc. BUT THEN.. out of the blue i saw this one guy that literally made my heart stop, if the idea or sound of love makes you want to grab the nearest thing next to you and vomit then be sure to not read this next part.. but i know you will, you're curious right? (inserts that eye emoji thing into text). I promise you everyone that's reading this, my heart stopped, i am not sure if that's healthy or not but it stopped, this guy was the most amazing person i had ever seen and i knew nothing about him, all i knew, was that he was singing 'excuse me miss' to a fricking CHICKEN WING.

Hello chicken wing, this is your section of the story, if any of you know me (majority of you do not), you will know that i live, breathe, eat, fart,shit, cuddle, make love, eat.. wait make love? that was weird.. sorry.. but you get my point right? i LOVE chicken wings, if chicken wings were a person i would have married him for sure! but this mysterious man has taken that role now, so unfortunately that marriage between me and chicken guy must end. WOW, what am i talking about? i am literally typing out shit right now, i thought that i spoke a lot of shit but i am also now typing shit.. how is that possible?!

ANYWAY

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now for someone that has been broken for so long, literally rejected every guy that has come near her and has a bitter taste in her mouth about love, i knew this guy was the one that i was going to marry one day, does that sound psycho? maybe, but i am telling you, the moment i saw his video i had to have him, i think this type of feeling is something that you only feel once in a life time, because i have never felt this in my life, it's not been a very long life but i have never felt this way, i'm going to tell you more about that in a moment.. i went over to this mystery guy's page and wow.. imagine like a really funny meme of someone just sitting there in shock with their mouth open in shock, that was me, i literally went through his pictures and then watched his video's (fucking hell woman.. stalker alert), but i had to know everything about this guy, this feeling i had was insane.

Let me tell you what i found out just from stalking his page for like 5 minutes; he was into his fashion (that or he sure knew how to put outfits together), he was very family orientated (this trait is super important to me), he had a great support system around him and clearly had a lot of love for his friends, he was a clever and intelligent individual and most importantly, when i looked at his profile all i felt was positive energy and happiness, this guy was literally the human version of a sunshine! and if you guys know me, that is my motto in life, to live a positive life no matter what. You are probably thinking? 'what does he look like', 'we want to know a description of him', if you all enjoy reading this then i will be putting out a part 2 to this post (you will understand why soon), all you need to know is that he is the most beautiful, humble, kind and amazing person i have ever met and i mean that with my entire heart. ANYWAY, so i had to think of something to message him to really catch his attention, i assumed that he was really popular and that his dm's would have been filled with people (it's an automatic thought that you think when you see an attractive person, believe me).

SO.. guess what i did? ha ha ha.. oh god..

I umm..

Umm..

Yeah i told him that i fancied him hahaha, hahaha, hahaha, hahaha i am laughing so much because this is out of character for me, as soon as i sent it i kinda like threw my phone away from me because i was literally like "WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE", i was in so much shock that i had just typed those words, the fact that he took a while to reply just didn't help at all (thanks for that mystery guy, i know you're reading this). EVENTUALLY he replied and boyyyyyy, he did not know how to take a compliment, but neither did i, we spoke about this, A LOT, then we spoke about chicken wings but he never knew that i had found him via OSH, you see how this all connects now? but i have to tell you all something as i am now speaking from the future, i am in love, i am so deeply in love with this mystery guy and i don't even know how to describe it to you.

Guess what? of course the story isn't done, but i will leave you with one thing..

CORONAVIRUS (covid-19)

if you guys want to find out more about what happened with me and my mystery man.. well you're going to have to be patient.. ooh i like this, i have given you all a cliff hanger, i used to hate these but it built the suspension for me!

I hope that you all enjoyed part 1 to my story, my voice and my experiences, if you want to see a part 2 be sure to leave some comments for me, message me on my personal instagram account: bethmellorx

I hope that you all enjoyed this, do not forget to show some love also.

Yours sincerely,

Bo