What is Love?

What is love?

If it don’t hurt me

No more

What is love,

Does it feel soft as sand on the ocean floor?

What is love, does it feel like poison from a sting?

Does it cling, does it ring, does it clean

My wounds,

From past transgressions and oppressions

Does it heal or steal?

My joy

What is love?

The greatest gift from above

I’m not being spiritual but I’m talking immaterial

What is love if it don’t hurt me no more?

Does love stab me like a two-edged sword

Is it how I was hit and abused?

Is it how I was touched when I was in preschool?

Is it twisted like terrorist, slitting my wrists?

What is love?

Only I can know

When I let go

And embrace my flaws and all

In awe inspiring glow, it is now bestowed

Upon me

Love does not hurt or envy

It is something that is experienced in the most

Subtle ways

it captivates while letting go acts of hate

it is forgiveness, compassion, trust, and zeal, integrity, confidence

that’s enabled me to heal

be careful of the words I love you

for they carry much weight

not all of us have experienced true love

because in some of us, it is equivalent to a familiar hate

Music: Ylang Ylang Slowed 1 hour by FKJ

As long as I can remember, the idea of dying never set well with my inner self. It's as if some days I feel spaced out and literally unaware of my surroundings. In these instances, I wonder if this is what Death feels like. Is Death a calm being or a violent one? Why are humans so afraid of passing on into the next dimension of life? At the same time, I wonder if everything really has a purpose. I mean technically, humans are just a small grain of sand in this ginormous universe. We hold on to things that we can't change and fear the things that we can change.

I am pretty sure that in your life you have thought about the concept of death or dying all together. What makes one take their own life? What situations arise that others find that there is no meaning in existing in their human shell? Why let go? Is life that bad that you are considering taking your own life? Did something happen to you? Are you feeling so alone that when you scream it feels like it hits deaf ears? Are the people closest to you much farther than they appear? If you answered yes to any of these questions, I have an answer for you! Simple, STOP GIVING A FUCK ABOUT ANY and EVERYTHING THAT IS CAUSING YOU TO FEEL THIS WAY!

You are pure energy my friend. I know that life seems a bit fucked right now, but guess what? Since you are pure energy, you can literally have anything! No seriously, you can have anything you heart desires. It's called practicing the law of attraction and speaking things into existence. As a matter of fact, I have a challenge for you. I want you to go an entire week without thinking negatively. During this time, I want you to focus on one thing that you really want, and by the end of the week, it will happen for you.

Whether that be something tangible or intangible, you will attract what you put out. Now I am sure your asking, what the hell does this have to do with the birth of death? Simple, do not harm yourself in anyway possible because you are a vessel of divine truth and light! You have a mission to accomplish during your stay here on earth in this third dimension. You must first allow yourself to unlearn everything that you have been taught and learn something new that only you care about. You know, like something that feeds your soul. That is all we really want anyways. Most of us don't want to die, we want to be felt, heard, experienced. This all starts with you!

You have to make up in your mind whether you want to truly live or let time pass you by. If time passes you by then what else can you do with your life. You have to live and when you live, love will follow. Trust me. I know exactly how it feels to be in a world full of people and still be alone. So it is up to you, yes you to conquer that feeling. No one in this life can make you feel joy, love, peace, happiness, or success, but you, yourself.

You must first let go of life as you know it to experience, feel, and hear yourself.

How does it feel to really be in love

How does it feel to really feel

How does feeling feel

How does the breeze touch your soul

How can you let go

How do you breathe

Without

Thinking

I often feel like my soul longs for another realm

I am lyran

The oldest starseed in the entire galaxy

Art resonates within me

I am art

Life is me

the universe is within

feelings

I feel

When I touch, I embrace

I appeal strokes of caressing hands

I hold, cherish

For this land

Is not my own

I am here

Forever unknown

Ahhhhhhhhh

When we breathe, we breathe in and we breathe out

Feeling the warmth of breath against anything felt and seen

Things heard

Unknown sounds that forever ring

I am seen

However, my mind remains clinging to a pole

Im freestanding

Cant you see or even catch my soul

I sometimes feel alone in this world even with everyone around me.

And sometimes, the very people around me are deaf when I speak

Its like im screaming

stuck in a sleep paralysis

my mind races and speaks in adlibs

im a prisoner to my mind sometimes

author of my own confusion

mental contusions bruising my soul

feelings of empty

not feeling wanted, loved,

I just want someone to hold

Me

But unfortunately

I forgot to let go when around me was sinking

And I sank into the abyss

Not thinking of cause and effect

Only looking at the chains around my ankles

And my neck

Help

Help

Help me please

Im drowning in a sea of emptiness

Unable to make a sound

I was in the prime of my life when I started to live. I had just turned 27 and finally started to see things a little bit differently. Feelings didn’t feel real at all and my disassociation with myself spiraled. I got back into questioning things that didn’t make sense. For instance, how the hell did we as humans evolve from the Big Bang? Yeh I know, science is meant to prove the existence of certain things, but what about the existence of the unknown. For all we know, we could just be stuck in a alternate reality, universe, or dimension. Maybe time isn’t real at all either. Maybe its all just made up. Maybe your life is my life and vice versa. I you, and you me. Do you feel real at times? Have you ever seen a live glitch? I have and it was weird as fuck. Like oops, that aint supposed to be here, or oops, looks like theres been a breach in the life continuum. I have an even deeper fascination with space and the laws of life that govern our self-precedence. Are you living or existing, co-existing maybe? What drives you? Do you sometimes long for a place that isn’t where you are currently located?

Plays: Girl With The Tattoo (Slowed & Reverb) – Miguel & Partynextdoor

Between The Sheets (Slowed & ReverB) – Isley Brothers

Kiss me gently under the stars. Lay me in a bed of rose petals. Feast your eyes upon my golden sunkissed skin and take me. Im yours. For now and then, until the end of time. Kiss me slowly while your hands caress each part of my body starting from my feet, slowly rising up my leg. We feel and feeling becomes an ethereal experience flowing through space and time. Drifting through the hidden crevices of our minds. We become one in each other. I feel you, feel me, feel we.

Song Playing: Experience – Ludovico Einaudi (slowed & reverb) deeper

I know you. I know all of you. The feelings that your feeling right now, the hope that seems lost, the mind that never stops thinking. I know you. I know all of you. The hidden hurt, the pain, the depression, the suicidal thoughts. I know you. I know all of you. Feelings of being wanted in a world that revolves around hate, that promotes division, that tears down a persons character, their soul, their being, who they are. I know you, I know all of you. I am you. I feel with you. I cry wit you. I lay with you and I think and observe a life where pain is no more and all surrounding is peace. We long for a place that isn’t even on this planet, where our souls can roam around freely and bask in the ambience of real life. Time is the conduit of relativity. Time is irrelevant when your in a state of constant feels and no one understands your why. They just judge you and make you feel unappreciated. They don’t know you like I know you. They don’t feel you like I feel you. They don’t understand you like I understand you. They aren’t you. Only you are you. You understand yourself better than anyone here. You also have a deep connection to the universe that cant be explained. I am here to tell you that this is not the end. It will get worse before it gets better and it will hurt. It will feel like a thousand pieces of glass are stuck in every part of you and you will be unable to pull them out. It wont feel painful as described but it will force you into a state of panic. In these times, remain true to you.

“I’ll be seeing you, in all the old familiar places. That this heart of mine embraces, all day through. In that small café, the park across the way, the childrens carousel, the chestnut tree, the wishing well. I’ll be seeing you, in every lovely summers day, in everything that’s light and gay. I’ll always think of you that way. I’ll find you, in the morning sun, and when the night is new. I’ll be looking at the moon, but I’ll be seeing you. I’ll be seeing you, in every lovely summers day. In everything that’s light and gay, ill always think of you that way. I’ll find you in the morning sun…”

- Billie Holiday “I’ll Be Seeing You”

- Sir “The Recipe”