What Falling in Love Feels Like

Your stomach fills with all of these butterflies. Some float around with a touch of blue to symbolize the sadness after thinking about all the bad things that could happen. Some flutter around with a touch of solid white to symbolize every single thought you have about them. And some are yellow to give meaning to the laughs, the smiles, and all of the joy they bring to you. Those butterflies don’t always mean you’re nervous, and they don’t always mean you’re scared. Sometimes they all run into each other when you don’t know what to think. Those butterflies are filled with the love you hold for that singular person.

Your heart will glow. It will glow with happiness. It will glisten with joy. It will shine with faith. It will provide promise and hope. Your heart will piece itself back together after meeting this person. That person will pick up your pieces and shape your heart back together and help you love it as much as they love you. Your mind won't fill with hurt. They'll try their absolute best to keep a smile on your face. They will give you their all and more. That’s love.

Saying “I love you” seems like a scary thing to do. You get nervous. You hesitate sometimes. You really want to say it, but you hold the words back. All of these questions fill your mind. "What if he doesn’t feel the same yet?”, “What if it’s too soon?”, “What if he leaves?”. You wonder and wonder, until all of a sudden, you say it. It’s out in the open and you wait. You wait to hear them say the same. Then they say four small words that have so much meaning, "I love you too”. Your heart starts to flutter, the butterflies in your stomach seem to disappear. All because the man you waited to say three simple words to, has said them back.

You'll get flashbacks to toxic, broken relationships. You'll hope it doesn't end the same way. You'll think about it and it may cause isolation and restrain on the person that does love you. It'll be hard not to think about. The one that truly does love you will sit with you and listen to your long stories and hear the pain you've dealt with. They may not know what to say because they know you've been hurt, and they know they can't take away that pain. They still sit with you and listen to it. They cuddle you and keep you in their arms so you know that you're safe now. They hold you so you realize this relationship is different. You won't have to worry and they'll make sure you won't.

You’ve been hurt. You’ve been broken. You’ve been bruised. They know that. But they want you with all of your flaws and your doubts. They want you with all of your scars and pain. They want you with all of your love and joy. They want the entirety of you. You won’t have to ask them how they feel or what they’re thinking, because they’ll already tell you so that you know. You won’t have to question whether or not they love you because they’ll reassure you without you having to ask. Your mind won’t fill with doubts because they will have squashed those before they even had the chance to appear.

Love is a wonderful, caring thing you must hold with caution. But when you fall in love, it’s a feeling that you’ll forever hold onto.