Was i dumb? Part 1

This relationship has always been doomed, I don't know why i was surprised when it ended the way that it did. How in God’s name could there have been so many red flags without me seeing any of them. I thought I had enough sense to spot out faults in relationships , i do it all the time when my friends are with guys I know are no good for them. So why wasn’t I able to do it for myself? I guess its because of Theo’s nature so charming and good looking and funny and caring and blah blah-blah. He sucks that’s for sure, we are both nurses, fresh graduates from college and you know the dream is to finish college ,meet some really good guy, get married, the dream house the cute kids and start a family you tube channel . So the first guy that's interested in me after college that looks as if he has his life together got me head over heels .

Any who, we are dating for about 6 months everything seems great until I overhear him telling a friend that he is short on money and needs a loan , now mind you we did not live together but his rent wasn't expensive, we both have student loans and get the same pay, he Doesn’t drive as he lives close to the hospital, he Has no kids and he’s not supporting any family so why would he be short on funds. Now in the moment of overhearing everything you would think that I would have evaluated like this but. No , being the dumb-dumb I am I thought he wanted to buy me something nice or plan some trip for the both of us. I didn't say anything to him about it but two days later he asked me if I could give him a loan of $5000.00 because he needed to do something he couldn't tell me about and that if it wasn’t important he would've never asked. Being the sweet naive and supportive girl friend I am I gave him the money. He loved on me that week after getting the loan, dates, walks in the parks, foot rubs, the name calling when it wasn’t baby it was honey or boo bear.

I should have known right then and there that he was using me. Looking back I don't know why i gave him so much money because i found out that he took the money to buy a brand new car. I was like you got me out here driving around in a beat up blue Toyota corolla while you live a block away from your job driving a brand new Audi. I was livid when i asked him if that’s what he spent the money on he started getting upset saying he knew he should have never borrowed any money from me and that he thought out of everybody i would understand what it was like as the only black guy in our hospital that didn’t own a car and that he never wanted us to be looked down on . I can never forget the dumb look on his face when he said “babe I did it for us". I knew dang well that car was for him and his ego not for us, but he had a way with words and touch and so i caved and said sorry as if i had done wrong by asking him about the car. If only my grandma could see me now she would have been disappointed to know that i lent a man money she always said “ Siann once a man start asking for money from his woman, that man is a robber and that woman is the heist.

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By Shantol Edwards