WANDERING ME
= How it feels when you are present at the moment and not present at same time .

WANDERING ME ?
On the day of summer ,when sun was warmly mocking the Earth . Me and my group of 5 friends decide to go on a summer camp like every person desires. Explaining , the camp excitement some of them were planning the destination , some of them were budgeting the funds , some of them were planning dress codes , some of them were planning about the hitting new cuisine , some of them were planning the activities to do on camping already .
At the same time , I was selective listening to them I was too ambivalent for the trip . It wasn't the first time I was feeling like that . Day by Day without no reason , I was feeling quite empty and devoid from time and again due to rushing work pattern and hectic schedule of my work .
Suddenly , my friend shook me and call ," Rose are u even listening ". My face turned into bright red with feeling of guilt and ignorance , I suppressed it within myself and mumbles ,Can we change the idea ? Frankly , speaking I didn't clearly recognize where the trip plan was . I told them shall we sail towards the shore ?
My friends were delighted by my response they were too pleased by my advice . I was too confusing , not able to recognize . I asked myself ,"Is my plan even that exciting they aren't even making sense anymore ?"
After few days we went the sea side the sweet escape from city clamor , trading honking horns , the city's chaos , noises and pollutions to the soothing whispers of the sea . which can heal the inner rushes and emptiness , pointless hollow , meaningless wanders and stress.
After a long time , a genuine smile forms on my lips that lights up my soul , like sunflower blooming under the sun of kindness , like I was liberated from all that emptiness , chaos and meaningless wanders .
The mind that use to drift even in the critical situation , wander around like a aimless fish who is emotionally detached but physically involved in every situation , with every person , with own self . That mind being to observe every little detail of nature . The vast and open water and endless horizon makes me feel free and relax . The every little pitch of gentle sound of waves and salty breeze soothes my ear and soul . It began to fill my hollowness with extreme pleasure and refreshment.
I began to notice my friends silly talks , pointless jokes , their love their care which I had neglected from past years . Even their meaningless jokes were giving meaning to me now. I silly chuckled at them after a long time .
I just sit near beach , collects shells , explores islands and takes a lot of photos , watching sunset I breathe deeply and said ," Thank you for dragging me in this stupid summer sea trip to tan myself I chuckled ". Did we drag you they were confused , I only know the reason behind my trip was not making them sad and was completely not being a eccentric . But on journey of satisfying my friends travel trip plan I found myself back on that journey .
This is how monotonous life make you feel stuck , isolated and emotionally numb . Sometime, rather than thinking much and mental overload . We might need a break , may be small one , may be a trip , may be a hobby that we left a miles ago due to our busy schedule , may be picking a open up again or may be a brush may be a move of body or a tune of voice .
I found my motive back on this journey , I reclaim myself on this journey , restore my spirit and maybe emerge from a deep sea that was inside me .
The aimless journey , futile path and directionless wandering meets its destination on this trip .
So , what's your wandering me ?
- DEAR READER , Share your amazing ways to come out of burning schedule how yours wandering me reaches its destination ?
Pen writer : Roosie Rose .
About the Creator
Roosie Rose
I believe writing is more than words on a page it is the power to transform pain into purpose, to heal what is broken, and to discover who we truly are. I don't have professional degree but I love what I write and read it millions of time .




Comments (2)
This was so real and relatable! Sometimes all it takes is a little escape to find ourselves again. Loved how your trip turned into a journey back to you. Beautifully written!
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