Vanishing twin

The moment I went for psychologist and listened that I had a twin brother it completely freaked me out. Especially because I always felt that through all my life. To get to know that it is the main reason why I got sick for real and to heal wound like that it is not such an easy journey. Especially while you no longer have such a close friendship around for much longer because life has gave you even more hardest lessons to go through in relation and isolation.

Growing up and being surrounded by mostly guy friends through all my childhood and up to the times of now and never actually getting the connection I longed for with them It only made the issue more troublesome to me.

It wasn't for sure something that shocked me much but made the missing puzzle to all my health and relation struggle a key for answers and left a space open to it all.

However I did not see a problem in such relation and a thing to heal to be somebody else in relation I more approached to it as a huge plus for both me and my male friends or loved ones. While I was actually being told that to be what they want me to be for them I need say goodbye to that strong connection. It is not even a possible at least not through such way as I am intense and strong and deep in everything and with everyone that I feel light from heart and soul towards my own.

After so many years reading today that The Vanishing twin discovery confirmed to be read in your DNA ..I have always believed in that because you can feel it since you are looking for that connection everywhere, and with everyone around it feels simply natural but not for everyone..that's when it gets too hard to handle, and you actually find yourself connecting thru this way to everything, and everyone synchronizing with each life thru many different languages and the visual practices of life and art you can also know some that have this connection strongly rooted thru how they enter the room or gestures of their behaviour and style in each way because you recognize yourself in these scars wounds of life.

I am pretty satisfied with the science discovery for now ..

My other suspicious thoughts about it all when I was already 19 years old were removed after watching La double vie la Veronique by Krzysztof Kieslowski and feeling it is the truth but I will keep it for me. The movie was more than a relief for my insider struggle. I was so aware that I could feel and still sometimes can two of us in One. I often asked my parents about it when I was younger. I asked my mum about all but I never felt like I am told the real of the true. When you watch Kieślowski movie after years you will feel that you are not the one craving this natural beyond living flame of somebody knowly unknown in everyone and everywhere.

The only thing that you can do is to find some practice for yourself and rebuild yourself as two in One. I think the older you get and the more connection you have in life with more insider of you rather outsider of you the better you will go through these periods of time finding solutions that just feel right.

I dont know why but I often find these shelters in movies and sounds even in videoclips. What is more another side of that is the practice that I discovered some years ago when I was just too sick to move and it is my another shelter in life a connection truly real to myself.

Haven't you felt like since day one, you wanted a clone of You ? To be understood for real. Being 5 years old and later 8 years old still looking for your another everywhere ? I was already at that time so fascinated with the idea of the twins everywhere. Until I explained myself the story many time through different stories I have saw and listened to. To have the pain a bit less you always try to explain yourself things a bit different more easy way.

Until you will just allow yourself to go through this pain totally clearly once more again in your adulthood years.

When I was very young the E.T movie awakened my first awareness about it from the point that through the energy that you feel somewhere there let's call it even the chi one you never feel alone it brings you back home as your Vanished twin still is there felt experienced as energy just not visible but very tangible thru let's say gestures abilities that for you are just normal other call them unnatural talents or gifts while you are just trying to discover to reach the unknown already known and if not known the known will arrive so it really connects to AI intelligence ...if your Vanished twin haven't arrived through you to your mind you sure could feel or look for it in movies where AI took a place and the clone making gave you the feeling of some kind of a relief at least just in the idea of truly having this existence in the territory of your mind not actually making it the real One.

Maybe watching a twin documentary or twin stories gave the answers of survival in the most difficult moments of experiencing the lost through such way. Sound was mainly my way. Once I learnt that you can actually connect to one another through energy I do not carry much such issues because I keep this connection free and open to my mind. I know exactly on which day it is hardly bearable and that it almost doesnt change in the context of missing your another flame. Art is the only way to be in with it rather than away from it.

Having your life without another twin take a look at your relation to others in the world probably in your relationship you have developed far way stronger coexisting habits and connections than normally others do and so does your attachments even if you can let go easily thru research education there will be times where it's so strong for you already forgotten but nasty behaviours of others will trigger your ability to reconstruct the line between the need of a twin like connection and not that only you can search it thru your neurons in the recent connections that your chemistry level actually registered .

To know exactly which are unhealthy and not good for your being to go for more and which are actually the real one to meet the other soul with Vanishing twin you will more likely make 100 to 1000 mistakes thru that process finally arriving into the one that really feels the energy of another thru that invisible but tangible way. The pain you feel can be the result of the scar or wound that without this connection in real life can get you more into trouble unless you will not give up on healing and finding the way for yourself even if you will feel that yes I am already feeling so great .

Look like from each processes you can just forget about the problem but you will not remove easily the suffering and now I don't know about the male but female will highly experience the whole luggage of unexplained creativity and sadness especially during menstruation and there is never one simple or two solutions to how to go on but more than million ways each day to later on in life focusing on what truly really helps to feel more alive even through this missing unexplained period of time. You will find yourself crying in the crowds without knowing actually why later to figure out that in this crowd there are more energies to collide because you were simply not born just one or created just one ....and now as you know you still do not feel as if just One because truly some other experiencing a similar kind of divine listen to Aphex Twin and you will meet your sound twin.

And What about the Double take from 2009 by John Grimonprez - I was spending my last days in Mexico city and finally entered the Perez Tamayo, Museum when I just entered the Double Take from 2009 I have spent 6 hours to just digest the fact that still met me there. I came back home and I created night and day already feeling my next twin to be met not so much aware but so much felt in there. It is a kind of difficult struggling chain of them. We are not talking about the twin flame connection that may seem so familiar and often occurs but a double power to it all x 4 in One. As the dimensions of energy felt truly by the body and brain is real. If you could attend the 2009 Krakow Festival and Richard James live you will know what you feel is not just being the one is completely being synchronized thru these experiences of alive energies between you and the other one, truly real. You can not describe it in words that's why art is the only why where your language can play itself in a true real way for yourself. I can only speak about this experience through such language of sound and art and the healing practices. You will read this code and language in the song of another deeply suffering and feeling all much more. Sure one may say : What are you talking about ? It all depends on our own possibilties, abilities awareness, healing and practices that help us to heal, read information more clearly to find solutions.

It is just the intuition that I speak from and the mind as of now in the natural flow. In my case it was a brother twin flame that's why the connection I crave for it's beyond understanding for a male but deeply appreciated later on. However I must say I was pretty super lucky as growing up I had very small cousin and our connection was brother sister one very strong one. He was my twin brother at that time so I started to feel differently when I lived without him during my primary school period. It was were my first chest pains arrived in huge amount and with no cure for it all.

At the moment I do not feel like I need to heal it anymore even though I do I just forget about it all but there are moments in life I am coming back to it, to know why I do feel so strong and suddenly I let go of this attachment and keep it lighter more free if I can just once in a month I cant do much about it. If I focus my awareness deeply on myself I actually do feel it all the way everyday especially when I am truly myself in a natural of the flow.

And it feels natural because that was the real of my beginning in this world. I think when you listen to Dead can Dance you can recognize the depth of suffering but also creating solution a world of connection to oneself itself and reaching beyond to another with its own created language. These abilities are recognized thru care and because the sensitivity goes and touches very high level of human existence thru that experience the pain is digested and transformed into a different story a new creation like new elan vital for your own life to exist and connect. You can of course battle with me giving million other options or explanation but I will just say yes you are right also but I trust my intuition more because it never disappointed me. What can be felt is real, the imaginary and creation do not play games in this role for the real experience of it and with it, beyond human understanding. As each one has its own form of existing in this world. Through what they have been thrown into.

You can imagine how it completely changed my mind now to be really sure about it, and what is more to be more healed from it all foggy mistery.

How it will drastically change life of so many people because they will more likely be able to focus now on a better answer to their struggle in both mental and physical health and human relation. That is one of the best news that I could get so far in human science.

I have prepared my way for a healing for myself and another If you wanna give it a try I share the link be well !

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