Unconditional Love

Love - They say good things come in small packages but who knew such a small word could hold so much weight. I’ll be the first to raise my hand. Of course there is the love you have for your family members, friends, and unconditional love for your children. Then there are those complete strangers you meet that some how come into your life and show you a complete different meaning of what unconditional love means and feels like. It is that one person you cannot see yourself without because the emotions run so deep. From the way you two touched, and not sexually, the feeling you get in your stomach just when thinking, seeing, or even being around them, to the feeling you get deep within your soul. A feeling that completes you and scares the shit out of you at the same time because it leaves you feeling naked and vulnerable.

Love is a beautiful thing. Sometimes we chase the idea of love, never truly understanding what we are searching for, what it feels like, or how to give and receive unconditional love to-from another individual. It is during those times you learn the most valuable lesson of your life. I often wonder if, after experiencing such a soulful connection with another person, will you be capable of ever experiencing that deep feeling of compleness again? Or have you missed out on the chance to be with your soulmate? Your other half, or what some may call, your twin flame.

Have you ever loved someone so deeply that you stopped holding on, simply for the sake of their happiness? Because holding on not only hurt you, but damaged them as well? Willing to suffer alone, silently, because their happiness meant more to you? I’m talking about that kind of love where you let it go praying it’ll come back, but understanding and accepting the possibilty of never being with that person again. And with no ill feelings, no resentment, and no anger, you look back on your experience with them and wish them nothing but the best.

It hurts. It cuts deep. But the lesson you learn while going through it will be the most rewarding lesson you have ever learned in your life. Loving someone beyond yourself and wanting more for them is selfless. Love…a four letter word that can be described with so many different variables. It forces you to heal the wounds that are deep within yourself because after you’ve experienced uncondtional love from another person, you desire to have it again. That unexplainable attachment called love.

Writing for me, is the greatest form of expression and I wrote this when I was at a very low point in my life. I was filled with hurt and grief. It was at that moment I realized I had a LOT of work to do within myself. One of my first post discused relationships and although I stand by a lot of what I said, there is one particular part I had to rethink because I wasn’t the victim. Sometimes, our wounds are so deep we cannot see the lesson that is right in front of us at the time. Being blinded by old wounds causes us to lose out on meaningful relationships.

The beauty in it all though, is if you’ve crossed paths with someone who truly loves you, they will always be in your life. Perhaps it is not in the manner you would have wanted but they are your supporter, your friend, and a shoulder when needed. I could not understand it when it was said to me but, now I get it. Just because you love someone, it does not mean you two are meant to be. Maybe that moment was not the time…or perhaps they were never placed in your life for anything more outside of the lesson you both needed to learn. They say love isn’t supposed to hurt…But that pain forces you to grow, become stronger, and heal. You will always love that person, but you also have a better sense of self. And that’s something you will forever be grateful for.