Triggered

Everybody is screwed up in their own little way. If you are looking for a career and you don’t have a violent criminal record, get into psychology. People seem to be twisted 137 different ways. I have seen that the most put together people sometimes are the most twisted. I don’t hide my issues, matter of fact I take pride in them so I’m like ahead of the game. I’m lying. Let’s move on. Trigger words. There are words that trigger a certain type of anger in different people. That doesn’t mean that the triggered person is the one with the issues. I just want to point that out.

One of the words that trigger people is stupid. I am not a fan of calling people stupid, much to the surprise of everyone that knows me. I use the word stupid a lot. But I am careful. I call what they are doing stupid. I call their ideas stupid. I might even say their face is stupid but I do not call people stupid. That’s just rude. Another trigger word that came up is two words actually. Shut up. I don’t being told to shut up. I don’t even know when I last told someone to shut up. I have to be at my wits end for that one. I think I spend more time hoping, praying and wishing for people to shut up. I am the person with the camera off throwing myself around in a chair, throwing my legs every which way direction, making faces and throwing my hands in the air hoping that they will just stop talking and say ok anything else? Alright we’re done. Then I’m exhausted because my brain is fried and threw out my back during my fit.

Crazy is another one. Don’t call me crazy. I’m not crazy. It is one thing if we are joking around but another if we are arguing and you call me crazy. Well on a certain level I am crazy, but it is a necessary crazy because the world we live in is crazy but I myself am not crazy. If anything, I’m an enhanced genius with keen observation skills and I just see what you don’t. Not my fault you’re stupid. Ha ha did you catch that? I did that on purpose, and I meant it. I’ve been called psycho and weird. Psycho, not yet but I that can change if you don’t shut up. I did it again. I know, I’m so clever. Weird, I am weird. Or maybe I’m normal and you’re weird. Madness after all, is a matter of perspective.

A word that triggers me is amazing. You’re probably thinking why? Well, I am going to tell you. It is overused and thus the value of the word has changed for the worse. People who say oh that’s amazing. It was amaaazing. The food was amaaazing. The this or the that is amaaazing. Is that the only word you know? Not only that but when you say the food was amaaazing and I ate there and I hated it then that leads me to believe that you’re amaaazing. When something really is amazing, and I find myself using the word, I feel weird. I can barely use that word. I wind up searching my brain files for an alternate word because I do not want to be one of those amaaazing people. And not only that but people all say it the same way. Does not matter where you’re from or what nationality you are, it is always the same. Amaaazing.

I don’t like told that I am being dramatic or overreacting. Even if I am being dramatic, I don’t need you to tell me that. You know where to go and how to get there, leave me be. I despise being called a liar. A lot of times they don’t necessarily call me a liar but their reaction does and that sparks something in the brain. Especially when I am not lying. If I am lying then it is what it is. When I was younger, I would totally overreact when I was lying because I knew I was lying. Now, it is the exact opposite. I explode because I am not lying. I do my very best to not have to lie. I am just not a fan of it. Keeping up with lies and keeping the story line and remembering what you said. I worked at a company where meetings were held to make sure everyone’s story aligned. That is exhausting. If I lie about anything it is usually about all of the unhealthy feelings I am harboring, but that is normal, so that is ok.

Another phrase that bothers me to know end is when someone starts a sentence to be honest or end the sentence with I’m not gonna lie. Gee thanks. I mentioned in a previous episode. If you have to start a sentence with to be honest does that mean that you are lying every other time. Or ending the sentence, I’m not gonna lie like you are some sort of martyr. Jesus was a martyr. You’re not! Say what you mean and mean what you say and we’re good.

Another one that came up is when someone says I don’t mean to bother you. That is usually in a work setting. It is what it is. You need something from em or you need to tell me something just come with it and cut out all of the extra words. Ain’t nobody got time for that. Now when it isn’t work and it is a family member calling you or something then that is different. If a family member or friend or someone that I care about feels the need to start their sentence I don’t mean to bother you then I need to check myself and make sure I am not doing anything to trigger that. If I’m not, then therapy. Therapy is the answer.

Sinner is a trigger word. People reminding me that I am a sinner. I don’t need to be reminded. I know I am a sinner. So are you little homie so check yourself before I you wreck yourself, or before I do because I am after all a sinner, prone to anger and violence. Just saying.

So how do we cope with trigger words. I don’t know. Pull the trigger maybe. Just kidding, no I’m not, yes I am. I guess shake it off or turn it into a joke. I read somewhere that 80% of the things we joke about or say just kidding to we really mean but we play it off as a joke to avoid conflict. What words trigger you that I didn’t mention here? Leave them in the comments and I can do a follow up article.

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