To the guy who broke me

How come the end of a 3 years realtionship can possibly destroy someone?

Well it all started when we met in the capital of Canada, Ottawa. We were 2 young adults in cooking school, in the same promotion. We started hanging out more and more until he asked me out on a date. The 9 months we spent together in Ottawa were amazing. We even lived together for about 4 months, adopted a dog together. Everything was perfect.

At the end of school, after graduation, he went back to the United States and I moved back to Montreal. We decided to try the long distance relationship. It was going well for about 1 year. I was going to see him often in the US. Things got rough and our relationship changed when he started hanging out with bad people and doing really bad things but even with he awfull behavior, and him coming back to me for forgiveness, I always caved and took him back. we were on and off for about 1 year and a half until we decided to end our relationship for good.

Now, how that guy destroy me? After knowing the real reason why he had a bad behaviour toward me and why our relationship collapse and ended with insulting each other,I went into a big depression. I wouldn't eat all day, I smoked 1 pack and a half a cigarettes a day, couldn't sleep, didn't go to work and didn't want to see anybody. I lost 10 kg in 2 months. I always tought that this guy will be the man I will. marry, have children with and grow old with. And those are the reason why I went into depression.

One day I just woke up, looked at myself in the mirror and told myself "enough, take your life back" and it is exactly what I did. Took a really good shower, had a coffee and went for a nice walk. When I got home, I searched for a new job. For me to take my life back I had to leave this city for a while. I ended up having a job in London, UK. So I moved there. Changes are good for your health. Withing my 2 years in London, I was more focus on my carreer than anything else. And because of my ex, I couldn't trust any guy, I thought I was a bad person and that I didn't deserve happiness.

So why do I thank my ex?

I thank him because without that breakup, I wouldn't had my dream job in London, I wouldn't be that happy, I would still be travelling between USA and Canada and not focus on myslef and career. I am much more stronger than ever because of that breakup, I find who I really am, what I want or don't want and what I deserve from someone by being single. So thank you.