The Small Black Notebook that Broke an Ebony Lady's Heart!

I can hear my heart shatter into a million little pieces as I stared into his SMALL BLACK NOTEBOOK which I was holding incredulously in my hands. My breath was very rapid and shallow as I struggled to breathe, my hands shaking, I sweat profusely.

Everything in my body and Soul was resenting this moment in my existence as I was very fearful of what this small seemingly non-threatening item in my hands was about to reveal.

I knew without a shadow of a doubt that the information this small book contained was not only going to ruin my life and hurt me but that for sure it was going to do the same to many other Souls who were clueless of its existence.

It was a miracle as to how I got a hold of it and honestly, I was pleasantly surprised at how easily and effortlessly it showed up!

Oh, but please allow me to share with you how I have come to this pivotal point in my life.

I remember the first time I laid eyes on him; the date was Saturday September 29, 1984.

It was a beautiful day late in September of 1984, we were experiencing the perfect temperatures which were heavenly. I was on my second year of College, studying International Relations at a very prestigious and acclaimed University in Lisbon, Portugal.

I was approached by two of my roommates from the dorms who said they had an extra ticket to see this National Soccer game which is a favorite pastime for Portuguese Nationals.

At first, I wanted to reject this offer however, in hindsight who was I to refuse seeing handsome hunks chasing a silly ball in a huge field. As I daydreamed of feasting my eyes on delicious eye candy, I accepted their generous offer.

Little did I know how going to this event was going to change my life. Now normally I do not like going to crowded places and boy was that Soccer Field packed with folks! Struggling to adjust to the crowd and the noise I really wanted to flee from there.

Suddenly my eyes were drawn like a magnet to this Adonis who looked like a Greek God on the field in front of ME! It was as if the Heavens Parted and an ANGEL walked in.

It was as if I awoke from a long slumber and immediately felt drawn to this SOUL.

Noticing that the number on his uniform was the ever-successful number 10, indicating that he is a leader undoubtedly (and yes, I am into numerology, kind of weird like that and love it).

I do not remember anything about the game since the entire time I was fixated on HIM.

Watched every move he made and the feelings I felt towards him were so intense and oh so familiar that it was truly eerie. I never felt like that in my entire life. As soon as I laid eyes on him, I asked my roommates who he was and what his name was? They said that his name was Alfonso Luciano.

Boy was he ever dreamy and his last name fit him perfect since it meant of the Light and HE WAS LIGHT! He lit up wherever he went that is for sure, the ultimate charmer and very charismatic. Melted hearts wherever he went and everyone who saw him swooned over him.

My roommates said that he attends our university and is in our class. I looked at them and said it cannot be! I would have for sure remembered him had he attended any of our classes!

They said that because he is popular and with him being an esteemed member of the Soccer National Team he rarely went to classes and had friends take notes for him. He also had arranged for special circumstances with the professors as to when he can take examinations.

Clearly, he was very privileged and had access to a very red-carpet treatment which came with his superstar rich and famous lifestyle. Yet I picked up a lot of down to earth and kind individual vibrations from him. He had a very contagious smile that lit up all the faces around.

After the game ended and we returned to the dorms our topic of the evening was Mr. Gorgeous as I nicknamed him. The ladies happily shared what they knew about him and his life.

We were six ladies sharing rooms and only three of us were present. I was elated as I was so sure that I just met the LOVE of my LIFE and kept telling them that somehow and some way I was to meet that very handsome young man. My roommates simply indulged me, and I can see into their eyes they were thinking sure lady as IF! Knowing how popular he was and that there was an exceedingly long line of prospects in wait for him, I was for sure the last in that line.

You see they knew their rules, regulations, and customs of their culture. Like all cultures and customs there were invisible and non-spoken lines one did not cross since being from different social classes and backgrounds did not really mesh! Well, you see I was a foreigner and did not really care about any of those things. I was very naïve, carefree, and lived my life with JOY and SPIRIT! In the eyes of the ladies, I was not from an extremely wealthy, well known, and prestigious family so anything of a serious nature was out of the question.

The fact that I was not Portuguese, and a black female also did not bode well for me. As the other three remaining roommates came back from their adventures, they heard us talking about our day and how it unfolded. Turns out one of the roommates revealed to us that she was dating his BEST FRIEND and that she will make sure we were introduced. You see she said that I was quiet the talk of the town and that all the males at school really expressed an interest in me.

I was unawares about this fact but in this case, it seems to have paid off as he did express interest in me to his friend.

He has seen me around campus but from afar, I never noticed anything. This made me so incredibly happy and a double date was set up for us. We hit it off and started to date.

He was busy with National Games, training, school, but we found time to be together when he had a free moment. I was also very understanding and gave him the benefit of the doubt.

Boy was I so naïve and innocent in many ways. I was truly clueless about how conniving, calculating, and cold hearted he was!

Deep down inside I was always hoping to be his special one and I saw him as my one and ONLY! I was a well-kept secret of his and he said that he treasured me.

So, one day as I was waiting for him to grab his clothes from the drycleaners, I decided to get something to drink at a nearby store. While there something within me urged me to buy a lottery ticket so I went for it.

I returned to the car and then I opened his glove compartment to get some tissues which I knew that is where he kept them to blow my nose. This is when the Small Black notebook of his fell to my feet! Well, my curiosity got the better of me and as I started to browse this book.

I saw it was nothing but names of ladies and their phone numbers.

I realized the names of three other ladies which I knew from school! They were all foreigners like me. I returned the book to the glove compartment. Feeling like I was frozen in time I do not remember how long I was numb for!

Many emotions ran through my essence, I kept it cool and collected as he came back into the car.

He apologized profusely for taking such a long time to return but said that he ran into one of his soccer team mates while at the Dry-Cleaning store, so they got sidetracked.

Containing myself was not easy as my blood boiled. I was so angry and could not believe how I have been such a ditz! All I wanted to do was scratch his eyes out, but I abhorred violence and knew that it was not who I am.

Lord knows how I kept it together, but I was happy I did. Once I calmed down, I was able to call all three ladies on his book and asked to meet with them as soon as possible saying that there was something that I discovered about their Rich and debonair Beau! After speaking to each lady separately on the phone I told them that I will get back to them with the details for our meeting.

Next, I convinced him to book a suite for us at the most exquisite Four-Star Hotel in town so that we can have the most romantic time ever. I told him that during the day I was going to get pampered and, in the evening, boy were we going to have an amazing time for LOVE and LUST!

It was a surreal day when I met all three ladies who were also having flings with him on the side with each thinking that she was his one and ONLY! We all noticed we were all from Foreign origins. On his international flavor’s menu was me being his African Queen, another young lady was his Norse Goddess from Norway, the third young lady was his Japanese Empress, and the fourth young lady was his Greek Goddess.

Getting over our initial shock regarding what a creep our collective Beau was we easily bonded being women who were scorned! It turned out to be such a beautiful day for us ladies as we pampered ourselves, getting awesome massages and the ultimate SPA treatment all on his dime.

As he waltzed into that suite that night expecting to have some romantic endeavor with me alone, the joke was on HIM.

The look on his face was priceless as his jaw dropped upon seeing all four of us in there.

Each of us calmly stated to him his rotten actions and that he should grow up and treat women with more respect! We told him BEING RICH AND FAMOUS did not mean that he can mistreat people. We were out of there leaving him without a backward glance whatsoever and it felt great!

That dreary day also revealed a silver lining for ME personally, I checked the lottery ticked that I had bought only to find out that I WON about US $ 20,000! So appreciated God's way of rewarding me for taking that high road!

Years later I heard from a mutual friend of ours that he ended up doing the proper thing by marrying a wealthy and socially acceptable Portuguese lady which was match made in heaven arranged by his parents and that they had two boys. I was quite happy for him.

Our friend said that the shocker was one day his wife walked in on him and another man in their bed!!! Who knew, guess he had so many hidden sides to him and being secretive was his thing!

Gone was the perfect marriage, trophy wife and perfect children. In a way you can say that I owe a lot to that Little Black Notebook who saved me in so many ways from a two-timing philanderer who apparently did not learn anything and kept on hurting people treating them like some lowly pawns.

Love to all the people out there whose lives were saved by a Little Black Notebook!