How did we get to this place?
Our house is cold from the icy breath of silence. I sit at the table tossing the stale remnants of my breakfast... The sound of my fork against the porcelain plate wakes me from my day dream. No longer distracted by the musings of my mind, I begin to look around wondering how we arrived at this place... Our life together was made up of thousands of beautiful moments, strung together by our love, moments I wish we could have lived in for eternity but now we are locked in a purgatory created by disdain.
My eyes trace his figure through the blaring sunlight from kitchen window and as he comes in to focus, I can see him heaping dumplings into his already full mouth. I shudder briefly from disgust; things I found endearing in youth are no longer cute or funny as an adult. I leave my seat at the table and place my dish in the sink, brushing him lightly but nothing is said from either side. We live in a haunted house now passing each other like ghosts, taunted by the spirits of who we once were.
I walk through the house retracing the steps of our past... My first stop is the living room, where I could see happier times, him cradling my legs as I fed him popcorn. We enjoyed those times on the sofa, visually consuming everything that peeked our interests; well everything but horror… Which I love but he found too terrifying to watch, we'd curse the news commenters for dimming our positive vibes and always reminding us of how trashy people are ruining the word. I back up slightly, as if to get a better view of a past, like a director trying to catch the right shot. My gaze then goes beyond just us, I can see our friends now... It's game night and we are playing Subcategory, while we enjoy libations and good conversation. As the night closes we walk them to the door, bidding them goodbye. I continue on my journey following our former selves upstairs and to the bedroom.
Here in the door of our bedroom, I watch intently as our passion sets the room is ablaze, our bodies collide like waves. We take shelter under the blanket of the moon, I open up ready to receive the fullness of him entirely. Our rhythmic moans sing out to the cosmos, declaring we are forever linked, we reaffirm the promises made by our hearts. Minutes fold in to hours, we fall in to our pillows. I watch as we follow the sandman in to the realm slumber.
My journey in to our past is done... A love that should have been sustaining, didn't. It failed to weather the changes that come along with time. And yet still I ask how did we get to this place? Was it for lack of trying? Complacency? Were these the things that allowed our love to slip from our fingers like sand through an hour glass, allowing it to be swept away by a current strong enough to break the dam of our resolve. Irreplaceable and irrevocably damaged...
I suppose the question no longer matters. I am tired, the strength to fight has disappeared along with my dreams of forever. I leave with an unspoken goodbye, feeling liberated. I break the threshold back in to world, reborn in to myself. I cast my arms wide thanking the world for welcoming me, that first breathe cleansed me of any doubt I had about leaving. I wasn't leaving him but encouraging him to grow on his own, independent of me and the love that once was but no longer is.
About the Creator
Jeh Wells
Hey loves, I am Jeh a vivacious and multi-talented Jamaican Yankee. Passionate about all things creative,who lovingly basks in Mother natures ethereal beauty and I look forward to sharing with you all.
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