The initial wait, I do not abandon

Once I thought I could wait for a person for a lifetime, no regrets and so on, but now I find THAT I can not do, I am afraid THAT I do not have enough courage has been waiting in place, more afraid that we walk, will never find each other.

I have been desperately running to you, close to you, even though there is a whole world between us, but as long as we take a small step each day, one day I will hold your hand, and now I find THAT I will never hold your hand, because you have been standing in the same place, never move forward. Maybe I and you are like a merry-go-round, with eternal distance, no matter how I chase, never touch your hand.

His friends said, "Why wait so silly when you know there is no result?" Once I thought that as long as very seriously very seriously like a person, one day will move him, but DID not expect to finally only moved myself. "Clearly know there is no end, but also hell-bent", I believed that love will have a miracle, the original is I lie to myself.

I thought that if I forced myself to stop thinking about you and keep an unhurt distance from you, I would not be sad, but then it became clear that EVEN if I forgot myself, I still wanted to know about you. I think you care about me and there is a trace of love for me, as long as I continue to wait, one day I will hold your hand, until now I found that I for you, just a very ordinary passer-by, even if once there is a trace of heart, but that is only once, only a trace! Maybe I should feel happy, but if it is destined to be a traveler, at the beginning why provoke!

Heart motionless, no pain! They say the one who loves first loses! Maybe, from the time I fell in love with you, buried in my heart, I lost. Maybe like you is a fault, because of the fault, led to a lifetime of miss, many people, once miss, is a stranger! If life is only as first, how good, I am also me, you are also you, no beginning, no end.

Choosing to let go, may be the best choice, but I let go doesn't mean I give up, just like I smile doesn't mean I'm happy. I don't want to forget you too deliberately, so I'm afraid I will remember more clearly, maybe time is the best medicine, let it disappear in the passage of time.

I said to my friends: If I really choose to leave, THEN I will lose everything about him, those diaries written for him and treasured memories because of him. But his friend said, "Did you lose it? Are the good memories and pain he brought to you so easily forgotten? These things are already in your heart, unless you lose it too." Just as in my Own Swordsman, after Guo left, the scholar said that he would burn everything about her, including the letters he had written to her, But Bai Zhantang said, "It is useless to burn. You can never burn all the wonderful memories she brought you and the time you spent together."

Perhaps because of this, I choose to continue to wait, a lifetime so long, wait for you a few years what! Just don't know 10 years later, you will look back at that has been waiting in the lights dim people; I don't know 10 years later, whether you still can't just indifferent a long time no see.

Once the initial waiting, I never abandon! Now the final wait, I still!

Postscript: young we may not be able to believe that there will be no fate, but after all, we have come, we have loved, we have worked hard, is lucky, not life. Youth is used to miss is also used to unforgettable, no matter whether you and the original he (she) together, thank them, after all, he (she) accompany you through the road of youth, gave you only belong to your youth memory.