Surrender

It started with a hello, then it just went from there to nights with him and it was just so simple to be with him. It just made my day knowing I had some one to love me. I never for a second thought I was some person he made out to use for his convivence.

Dinner had to be done when he asked but always a remark of do you know what you are doing I hope this food is good that was his remarks, finishing the add on to the meat in the oven and food was ready. I have a boy a son his still small by the end of my time I barely had time to put him to bed always to cautious of doing everything for this man did not have time to chat with my little boy at times.

I am trying to make this work for us to do everything together and make it work, but it all starts going another direction, his always demanding his laundry be one way and do this for me through out the day even though he knows I am at work. I guess it does not matter to him how I find the time but he wants it done or his have his fit.

On many occasions I have mention his behavior to him but he responds to some way of always letting me have it that it is the way I do things always wrong. Sometimes I think he thinks I don't have a brain looks like it to me.

Strange but he is the one that does not know what he wants his too busy with demands that he just does not know. During our Valentines Day I got him a basket full of things he likes and in return he got me nothing, I guess he must of forgot which the way things are going I knew it would be nothing for me.

I end up going out of town to visit my family I came back to mess in the house it is always just him at home and this is what I come too every time I decide to take a break for me and my son. His not welcome with family because of his behavior with them so now I end up going alone to visit my family. I find it funny how well he behave with his parents his shows how much his in love with me. His parents like me and I like them there good people they cater to me all the time when I visit. I want to tell them about there son his actions the way he is behaving but I feel sad for them I wont at this time but I think they know.

When it is time for the outside cleaning I do the lawn he just will sit all day inside watching TV that I will not bother him because of his attitude always in a mad mood never a pleasant time with him any more not the man I met a year ago.

I have surrendered to him in so many ways I have done his demands every which way to keep him happy. I have changed the life I had before for him to accommodate all his needs with all the bad remarks he had to say and at this point I knew what I had to do for me and my son so I realized that I have been taken advantage of that was not love to me that was a man who needed a hired maid so I did the best choice of my life I left him with no words to say to him anymore I had Surrendered My Heart To Me