Staying Alive

Well Hello, this is Me Temporarily since I am hair challenged after chemo. I know it looks different from my Avatar however, my Perogative. Lmbo.

To say the least, I've been busy dealing with my health situation as you can see. To be perfectly honest, I hadn't even thought about what I would do until I saw this challenge and figured why not?

For a few years before my diagnosis, I had been changing the way I ate. I changed my vocabulary in terms of speaking about dieting from actually using the word dieting to saying: changing the way I ate. I stopped eating pork in 1989, the same year I stopped celebrating Christmas.

Fast forward to the summer of 2016, when I was alerted to this condition in my body, I did not agree with what the doctor said. First of all, there was no way in hell I could have that because I breast fed my son for 21 months - YES 21 months. All of the research I had done prior stated very clearly that breast feeding was in addition to being the best way to nourish a baby since they're not cows, it was also a protection AGAINST breast cancer so what the hell was this doctor talking about? Oh Hell No. No way Jose!

Anywho, here we go. I am mad as hell, pissed off etc. etc. so I started researching and changing my diet, oops changing the way I ate. At the time, I had no idea that cancer was associated with weight loss. I changed the way I ate by eliminating pasta, bread, butter, cheese, cut down on my intake of red meat, stopped drinking soda and juice. My weight dropped 20 pounds in weeks. I already had a Ninja so I started making smoothies everyday.

I had no intention of doing chemo. That was a curse word to me and I was highly offended by anyone who bought up the subject. So my family and close friends didn't openly discuss the subject with me. They secretly discussed it on the phone with each other. However, as fate or destiny would have it, I acquired a blood clot unfortunately. That was a game changer. I had to make a decision I did not want to make.

Ok Chemo, here I come. I was very angry going into this decision. Saying yes to chemo went against Everything that I believed in. I believe with every fiber of my being that God put everything here one is to use to heal the body. Every herb bearing seed. Let your food be your medicine and your medicine be your food. All of it. And now I had to make a decision that would, in my opinion, compromise everything I believed up to that moment.

What changed my mind? The better question is Who changed my mind? I had signed up for a webinar, The Answer to Cancer, as I was continuing my research looking for answers when my right arm formed a blood clot. While watching the Series, I was introduced virtually to a young woman. Forgive I cannot remember her name. Chemo Brain is Real. She was much like myself. She was doing all kinds of alternative treatments out of the country for her cancer. At the time of her interviewed segment, she had become weaker and was in a lot of pain. She was planning on going to another country for a different type of treatment, however, she was too weak to continue. The interviewer ended the segment stating that she went home to Boise, Indiana to be close to family and Died.

That Blew my mind! At the end of the Webinar Series, the Experts concluded that the best course of "fighting" cancer was a combination of Holistic and Conventional medicine. Now I know there are people who prayed and their cancer was healed, people who used Vitamin C Intravenously etc. However, in my case, I did Everything I knew how to do, came across, researched and I could not shrink my tumor. I was Devastated. I felt exhausted and defeated. I knew I still wanted to live because I have too much to do.

I completed chemo now and am looking forward to continued healing in 2021. I Forgive myself for beating myself up.

My eating will be Organic as much as I can get. It's a little more expensive, however, since it's just myself I'll be able to better manage. I recently put a FB post up that the whole world should be on Organic food. It's better for Everyone. I have been eating Organic for maybe a year now. When I eat junk food, my body can tell because I feel funny. That has made me search for healthier snacks and I've found my best: SO Delicious Dairy Free Frozen Dessert: Chocolate Coconut milk. OOOOooooo.....Delicious.

Moving Forward in my healing journey I realize that eating the best quality food, namely Organic, is the best gift I can give myself especially if food is to be the best medicine in my healing journey.

Wishing Everyone Healthy Food Choices in 2021 and Beyond!