Sorry

If I'm wrong and realize it, I am grown enough to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong". So, what I can't fathom is, what is so hard about that and why would people rather lie and manipulate others instead of just admitting their wrongs?

You can't use people, lie on people, turn on people, and cheat people, then expect them to kiss your butt when you need them.

What kind of mentality do people have to think they can treat people any way they want and never have to answer to it?

I know way more than I say because I've learned over the years, that no matter how often you speak on an issue with someone, no matter how nicely you approach the issue, or no matter how badly you get hurt, people just don't care enough to fix it. If they cared, they wouldn't hurt you so easily in the first place.

So, yes most of the time, I know who has spoken badly about me to cover themselves. I can read between the words people speak and what their heart is actually saying. I know the intentions of someone before they ever show their intentions.

I may look like a idiotksometimes because I don't react. So, people think I fell for their crap or that I don't know the trifling things they did or said while my back was turned.

But trust me, most of the time, I was expecting it, just hoping you had a good enough heart to change your mind before you did it.

Yes, people make mistakes but people that love and care for you don't make the same mistake twice. They for sure don't try to make everyone else think you were wrong when they know deep down inside, they were actually the ones in the wrong.

Toxic people will try to recruit others to their side when they can no longer control you. Sadly, I know that feeling all too well.

All the good things you've done goes right out the window along with all the bad things they did to you.

And no one ever apologizes!!

Well, let me show you what an apology is...

"I'm sorry I took advantage of your kind heart then left you in your dark times."

"I'm sorry I've never put you first but expected you to come running when I called."

"I'm sorry that I told those lies about you because I wasn't strong enough to admit I was wrong."

"I'm sorry I fell for someone else's crap and turned on you."

"I'm sorry that I got so mad at you for standing up for yourself, that I turned my back on you, after all the times you were there for me."

And you know how someone who loves you would respond to that, if it's genuine?

"It's ok. Thank you. I love you."

But if you have made those same mistakes on more than one occasion, you may have to prove yourself more, but are you so weak that you can't?

I've forgave people way more times than I should have and I'll always forgive because that's how God has hardwired me.

But, once that bridge is burnt, I don't do repair work.

I will wave at you from the other side but never again will I stand with you, holding your hand.

I have no hate for anyone. I'm also not stupid enough to continue with someone, who has proven to me, that they would of never stood with me and held my hand unless it benefited them.

It's a sad world we live in when you have to admit to yourself that, most of the time, no one truly has a heart like you do.