New Skin

On route 1988, I assume things are unfolding just as a dream. I age wisely and originally different. I am Michelle. Wrapped in a vivacious vibe with a target in my visual. I want to be his last love. Our energies regulate the perfect happiness, I LOVE HIM. This infatuation seems easily controlled, Boy was I wrong.

Now the way I diddybop is unseen. In a world where most want to spend their time "involved" in the current social trauma, i find it unnecessary. That's how I caught his eye. At the time we are both entangled in our lives so the short hi and bye weren't noticed. Only the relationship of a stister of mine and cousin of his brought our worlds together. I was unclear as to what his motive to the forth-coming entanglement on our hands would be. Soon would I find out. Later though tonight I want to be wrapped up in the pleasures of your hands on body attention. I yearn to be tossed and have him place his growing, throbbing,long and indeed very hard cock into the special spot between the lips hiding between my legs! And he did just that, provided me the sensuality I know I missed, and good dick attached to an awesome man is hard to come by these day. Little did I know. I have a deep thirst for a good whiskey ALL the time, if possible. This thirst allowed for an opening into a few chill sessions with HIM. I cherished every moment of it because we have so many likenesses among us and I am intrigued by a challenge.

He gets up every morning at 4:20am to prepare for his workday,how sexy! I'm embedded in a bit of his normal routine. Literally on the phone all day type shit, it was amazing. So to discover that his infidelities; although fore-mentioned to me, are actually not what he want but you choose to stay with the main whose emotional attachment to your heart has faded, interesting ?! And this new bundle of pink joy that has graced your place from another outside infidelity will hold a chamber in your heart because she is bearing your first born, and you didn't thin you could have a seed,HA! Never say never friend. And then you have a friend like me whom you never thought could be the person to have you check what you really want out of life. And you only want attention and love something I find easy to give, especially to someone deserving, yet it scares you. Who ever thought being in love with someone wouldn't be scary, hell all the citizens in the world but love conquers all so I wanna say, I'll wait. Knowing that he will never be for me is a drying emotional skin to wear. Still longing for something we both knew could never be,dehydrates me. Infidelities that crossed too many avenues,scares me! This dude thinks he's going to have the ability to damage me so I have to readjust my mental state. The attention he shows me won't allow it though, I am in love with his every need and I want to be the ONLY one to please him, but he has so much going on and so many lies he is lying on, I don't want to love you. So I wont!

At 10:20PM every night, from that awful last sight of us, I attempt a prayer of solitude and wish HIM goodnight. I still wonder if our paths will intertwine down the road of life but if NOT so be it. I in an attempt to continue to be the auuhhmazing me I proclaim to be, will take a deep breathe "in through your nose, out through your mouth." and proceed to handle the situation that the scenario at hand stands on accordingly.