Never Say Never

Never Say Never

I remember seeing homeless people on the side of the road saying “That could NEVER become me”.

I remember watching people consume hard core drugs and say “ That could NEVER be me”

I remember watching people lose their job, and go unemployed and say “ That could NEVER be me” .

I remember watching people bust their a** at a job they hated for close to minimum wage and say “ That could NEVER be me” .

I remember watching people without cars ask me for a ride and I said “ That could NEVER be me” .

I remember watching people with mental health issues and say “ That could NEVER be me” .

I remember witnessing people struggle and say “ That could NEVER be me”.

I remember watching people I knew move back home with their parents and I would say “ That could NEVER be me” .

I remember watching people released from prison commit small crimes after their prison release,and say “ That could NEVER be me” .

I remember watching people in relationships cheat on one another and say “ That could NEVER be me” .

I was the one constantly screaming “That could NEVER be me” .

Without taking the time to actually understand the reasoning as to why people did things I could not understand; I made the mistake of judging them. Close minded, arrogant, and childish is what I had become . Those same ill words I spoke over the lives of many others became my everyday life.

Cars breaking down on the side of the road .There I was stranded on the side of the road needing someone to rescue me. The only difference was I was not holding a sign, if I sat there any longer I’m sure I was one step away from holding my own sign reading “Please Help‼️Stranded Without Any Money”.

Slowly becoming consumed by the drug world without a soul to blame, except myself. I found myself right on the other end of the “ That could NEVER be me” saying again.

After quitting multiple jobs for immature reasoning that was so logical at the time ;here I stand unemployed. Fired, or quitting various jobs I sat unemployed, and I now realize why people cherish the jobs they where blessed to receive.

Being blessed enough to afford a vehicle,I slowly did not care to wreck them,abandon them, or just not truly show appreciation for any vehicle given to me. Now I stand without a car after stating “That could NEVER be me”.

I watched others close to me suffer from mental health illness. It was not something I took lightly due to my own personal circumstances as a child. I knew mental health issues could become very serious issues for someone. I fault myself for not educating myself on how serious the issues where for various people around the globe. That changed the day I was admitted twice for mental health issues. I lost my mind, as the entire world and family members watched my mental health decline drastically over a horrible psychotic episode. I still find myself horrified at my behavior, and cringe when I have a flashback from those dark days.

NEVER judge, never look at someone else’s downfall as something that could NEVER occur to you ,because it certainly can happen to anyone.

You will find yourself on the other end of the situation in total despair one day. The Universe has a funny sense of humor , and sometimes the Universe will reveal your darkest secrets, and reveal fears you never knew you had inside of you.

It doesn’t happen instantaneously, it happens when you least expect it. When you think you have your life figured out, when your content, when you believe that no one is watching.

That is when the Universe makes you pay. In those little moments when you are at your lowest.

I am a witness to this firsthand.

Love, Light, and Gratitude 🖤