My hook-up revealed that his job is: Male Sex Worker (Part 2)

It took ME approximately 3 weeks or maybe a bit less to ponder on how EXACTLY it was that I felt about having had sex with a GUY who accepts money for sex work and the likes. After-all that meant he was a master-actor. And perhaps he was simply using me as "Inspiration" or maybe even just "Practice" for his WORK-LIFE. It is not that I doubted his attraction to me. It was that I was having a hard time coming to terms with my attraction to him. And I don’t mean on a physical level. The was SEX was REALLY good. Maybe slightly detached on my end. But how else could I be with a self-admitted SEX-ADDICT. He is definitely not my first of such MEN. And probably WILL not be the LAST. And based on my previous experiences with such MEN - it is always the safer ROUTE to be de-attached end of things with them and towards them. Sex is ADDICTING. Good sex is even MORE addicting. And most of these guys just sees sex as a CHALLENGE. More often than not - THEY simply just want to be your "BEST". There is no grand meaning. There are no grand emotions. JUST MOTIONS! It is EXTREMELY hard to let go of these people. The people who push your sexual boundaries. The people who open you up to new experiences and thought processes. New sensations and heights you didn't know possible. Because it is simply not the kind of conversation you find yourself having - to even learn about these kinds of people and what they can be ABOUT.

It was very obvious to me that I would have no ISSUE continuing our SEX based relationship. But there was definitely a sense of UN-EASE to being unsure of how well HE manages his job, his commitment to his sexual health and to those who are his "CLIENTELE" and their own individual sexual health practices. I decided that I was simply not going to risk it and would not pursue him any further on my OWN end. Seeing as that we lived in completely different cities with a 300 Km+ radius between us. It didn’t seem IN my opinion to simply un-match him on Tinder and just try to meet people closer to me and perhaps ones with less of a RISQUE lifestyle as UNREASONABLE. Sure enough within 2-3 days of me un-matching him on Tinder. He texted me and said he was going to be around my area in a few weeks. And asked if I wanted to meet up. At that point it had been a while since I had had sex. And I knew that he would do a good job. So I said yes, sure. But that we would need to use PROTECTION ( condoms - as we did not use protection the first time) and often enough using protection becomes a deal breaker to MANY people especially if you started out without the use of them to BEGIN with.

However, had he told me prior to our first meeting his "OCCUPATION" I probably would have not AGREED to meet him. And if I had agreed to meet him. I would have insisted on using PROTECTION the first time. Whether it can be chalked up to dishonesty (on his end) or simply not relevant information for just a HOOK-UP - I would have definitely handled our first meeting or lack-there of differently. He agreed to using protection should we see each other again. And made no objections about it. Which to be honest took me by SURPRISE. So we made plans. To meet again. Though I am not sure if there will be a 3rd time pending on how this NEW meetup unfolds with the VERY OBVIOUS new boundaries. Coming from maybe more of my end over his.

Taking my sexual health and sexual responsibility SERIOUSLY is no-one else's choice to dictate but MINE and for me to decide my COMFORT LEVEL. And while I definitely was not happy I would need to be using protection (which definitely feels like a BARRIER between you and that person) to do anything else with a SEX-ADDICT would be FOOLISH on my part.

In the end, I never did meet up with him again. Because he had a lot of Childhood Trauma - which resulted in his line of work. And I did not want to take on emotions and energy from someone with that heavy unresolved traumas, simply because the sex was "really good".