Lovers & Friends

I was friends with him..at first. I once saw him at school. Its like he just appeared out the blue, like an angel entering my life on a sunny rainy day. I didn't expect to meet this angel. He was definitely brilliant, shining and a breathe of fresh air.. to me. We spoke of GREAT things in a school desk, face to face sitting first and behind each other. He was alluring me, calling me into his soul. I found this out later...because every time I ran back into him all m y school days of 4th and 5th grade... he would magically appear and take my hand, take me on his shoulders, and run with me into the next hallway of mysterious- attraction. I loved him already, just by the first day we met, not knowing I would love him 4 life the way I did... I seen him more in 6th grade too but how long would this last seeing this handsome person who was so gentle and endearing. Though he was still almost a stranger, as kids, he slightly an older friend was so sweet to me without me ever finding him first. He just captured my soul every time. I was in love before I knew I would love him forever.

Here We Are. Into 2020,,, so i can explain. we rekindled our relationship and made it grow in 2018. It was amazing how we captured each others soul all over again in divine timing. He saw me and he hugged me for the first in forever and then he entered my home. We talked for a while, watched some funny videos on Youtube for a couple of hours and then we talked some more. I just felt his energy. I desired him in a way like there's no going back. I didn't think twice about it. My heart, my body, my existence said GO",, .( I miss him right now.) He just kissed me like I expected and then we went into another dimension, awakening of the hearts that were once shattered to have found each other again to true, everlasting healing.

We rekindled to a love that was truthfully unbreakable. We're still together...2020, but sometimes I ask, why? Why us? I do love him so so much. we got a past, history, and a love so strong but sometimes now, i question his manhood now, his character. He's changed from childhood years of course into a grown man that's now experienced with toxicity in his DNA, used/abused, and confused. I was his friend for 17 years. We spent a distance, time frame apart, but our souls never left each other. We made true what we always wanted in general and from each other. True matching Love.

He delivered my 2nd Born after we broke up from our reunion relationship. He changed my perception of him and he has majorly touched my heart in a good and then in disappointing ways. He has been suffering with mental disorders and lack of self clarity-awareness, self respect, and integrity. He told me all about before, how he was longing for me once we met and been at a distance for many years.

It was the friendship I lost when I joined souls with this man. I love with my whole heart. sometimes, I guess what I wish is that, he would be my friend only. I never felt a love this strong for someone so confused in life. he is the one I want to marry. He is the one I want to continue to grow with. I thank God for him everyday. I love him so much. Friends no more, why? you will always be my friend first then my one in a million Lover.

ASH & JAZZ 2001, 2002, 2003, 2018, 2019, 2020--