Love Unexpected

It was in the early times of December 2012, cold weather and a week until Christmas. New Year was coming right after that, and I knew that I had to change my life around; be different, do something new. I felt like my life was missing something. I knew I had to make a lot of changes. Turning my dull life upside down, I wished that I had guidance, but I was just lost and felt like I had no one around me! I didn't know how or where to start to make a change; I felt lost. Friends didn't seem like friends to me; family, well, I felt so distant from them. I felt like no one understood me. In a world full of people, I asked myself how could I feel so empty and alone? And if the sun shines everyday in this dull weather, why can't I smile and see the light in my darkness?

Maybe it was normal to feel this way. I was young and I was overthinking everything in my life. Maybe it was okay that I felt so lost; it was okay for me to stay in my room and barely talk to anyone. And maybe it was okay my laptop was the only company I loved having around me. It was okay for me to open up a window of Microsoft Word and type up all my feelings in different fonts or colours, and as funny as this may sound, I sounded different to me each time I read a line in a different font or colour.

But I wanted more; I needed someone to listen to me vent, and I couldn't think of anybody around me, so I thought why not look for a chatroom. Let me talk to new people worldwide! Make new friends all around the world. Because why not? So, I searched for a chatroom and I found this chat that was so multilingual and so full of people, men and women; everyone seemed to get along so I signed up for it. I met new people from day one and I felt like I found people I could connect with on a deep level!

Me being there for a while, a chat window popped up with a nickname I very much liked; it was kind of catchy and different, so I answered, and from that first conversation I had with that person, I felt this strange connection. Funny enough, something in my mind and soul told me I needed that person in my life. So we added each other on messenger; we spoke everyday. And as crazy as this may sound, I even canceled my plans to travel with my family! I just wanted to spend my time talking to this amazing person! I was stuck in a circle. I felt a connection and felt so alive. A feeling I've never felt before. As the days went by, I've connected with that person more than anyone else in my life at that moment; we had everything in common. We thought alike. We felt each other in every way. We shared secrets. We shared stories. We shared a world that we called ours. We understood each other; we laughed and cried together. And my heart, it never beat that way before. My mind never thought that way before and my world never felt so beautiful. I got addicted; I was in love. Unexpected but... I fell in love and I couldn't fight that beautiful feeling because I didn't feel lost anymore. I didn't feel lonely or empty anymore. I felt like now I have someone in my life, someone I can go to, talk to, vent to, listen to and be there for. Never felt that way before, it was so new to me. And I thought to myself, what a beautiful place to be. How blessed I felt is beyond words...

Part 2 will come if you guys liked the story...

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