Lost In The Darkness

When we chose to incarnate in this time period, I fully believe that, we chose to do so, due to the fact that the trials which filled this specific space, have the potential to vastly increase the knowledge, wisdom, and strength of character, as well as resilience, among many other attributes in anyone who is currently living on this planet. We are all going through our own trials, whatever shade they may be, in regards to the depth of difficulty in which at any time, we may find ourselves.

I have had the last, well, little over a year now, to get used to living alone, and in that time, I have gotten used to the fact that no matter what life brings my way, I must face it alone. I dearly miss my beautiful wife, but looking back, now I can clearly see how impactful she was in my life, in preparing me to face this world, without her by my side. I learned a great deal of attributes which helped me in refining my character into one, that exhudes compassion, kindness, and an optimistic sense of clarity and goal orientation. I see others who are going through battles at this time, which they have been facing for some time, which stems from the fact that they have refused to learn the lessons, which certain situations were meant to teach, In my opinion.

I have seen from a personal perspective, the detrimental impact that addiction, in and of itself, has on those who suffer from such a thing. I have full empathy for those who are going through this struggle, and I always want to be clear, this is a struggle that I too have dealt with, and the reality of the situation is that addiction is something that I know I have a higher propensity towards, so I ensure that I take steps, to ensure I do not backslide into a life of misery, grief, and sickness. I see those close to me who are suffering from this ailment, and I feel for them, however, when advice is given, and the advice is backed up with actions, to help them to break the chains, that addiction happens to be, and they intentionally continue down that path, disregarding any and all advice and help that has been given, it causes a sense of sadness to fill me.

I have come to the resolution, and this is something that does truly apply to all of us, we can only do our best to help those who are suffering from addiction, we can give all the advice we have, and committ to the actions necessary to help those who suffer, however, if they are not willing to take steps on their own, towards healing this illness, then at a certain point, as unfortunate as it is, our hands are tied. I have set a rule for myself, and that is this, if people who suffer from addiction, wish only to fall further into the darkness which comes with it, the only thing I can do at that point, is keep my boundaries strong, and stop putting myself in positions, which could potentially threaten my own sobriety. I will never go backwards in regards to addiction, but healing from such a thing, is a life long process, and it is one that I engage in happily. My life has become a dream compared to what it used to be, and that is because I chose to take the path of sobriety.

The old saying holds much truth, in that we can lead a horse to water, but we can't make it drink.

Brightest Blessings.