I am not afraid that he will ignore me, but I am afraid that he will suddenly leave

I have a buddy who has been together for more than twenty years, and we both moved around three schools before and after, all in the same office, that fate, naturally, is quite precious. That day, we suddenly quarrel, in fact, quarrel, because a small thing can not be small, and the responsibility is all on me. My buddy is two years older than me, usually, letting me everywhere, but not that day, he was like a mad cow and I made a strong top ......

The first week, I did not care about him, and he also did not care about me; another week, he sent four oversized red apples to my desk, we still did not say a word, put down the apples, and he turned his head and left, I pretended not to see.

Another week, we still did not speak, on the way to the cafeteria on Friday, I saw him from afar, and quickly step forward, I wanted to talk to him, but he ignored me and went straight away, I did not go after him.

I went home and told my wife, she said, "He is a brother, you are a brother, you talk to him first, no shame, not to mention, he is usually so good to you, you two or so many years of brothers!" That night, I also thought well, no matter what, I have to go to him after dawn, to give him apologies, and he released the past.

I didn't expect to receive a call from my sister-in-law at midnight, saying that my brother was sick and was being rescued in the hospital, and I went crazy with this bolt from the blue! The daytime is still fine, and still betting with me alone, how can it be sick? It can't be? After receiving a second urgent call from my sister-in-law, I was so anxious that I didn't even put on my socks, dragged my wife, and hurried to the hospital, but I didn't get to see him again because my buddy was already in the intensive care unit.

My buddy stayed in the care unit for 23 days, all the experts did not figure out why he was sick, he did not meet with anyone, let alone say a word, and just quietly went away, like a speeding wind ......

For a long time, I could not free myself from grief and regret, why would it end this way? Moreover, I was prepared to apologize to him at daybreak!

But just a week later, I once again received a phone call from my hometown in the middle of the night, saying that one of my best friends with terminal intestinal cancer, the doctor judged that he still has more than a hundred days to live, the friend is only 48 years old, the two of us were drinking at the same table last week, but ...... the successive blows made me almost completely broken, this side is a good colleague for many years. This has been a good colleague for many years, there is a good friend who grew up together, how will fall at the same time one after another? Human life, is always so fragile, even a minute, you can not stay!

I really can't bear to put down these wounds imprinted in the depths of memory!

People's feelings, people's thoughts, it is so disturbed, difficult to part with, not afraid that you are strong again, will certainly knock you down in an instant. I think at first, Liang Shanbo was excited to go looking for Zhu Yingtai, but died in another country, Yingtai learned the sad news, and suddenly collapsed. Baoyu on his wedding night found the bride is not Daiyu, instant despair, from then on, do not care to ask questions, and finally did the monk. The moment the Seven Fairies left Dong Yong to return to the palace, she had only to write her stomach full of grievances, resentment, and reluctance on the old acacia tree that used to be a matchmaker. Meng Jiang female thousands of miles to find her husband, but only to see a pile of white bones, the pain of the heart, and how many people can pay attention to ...... life and death separation, that is the most reluctant people in the heart to accept!

But all this must be their most helpless, but also the best choice.

It turns out that a lot of things are available because these goods can only have once, not for life. Although they can not change the world around them, but can change their souls and the direction of life, and then full of sadness and tears to face all that should not have, their right and wrong gains and losses, to the final result, to wait until later lovers can be assessed.