I am me.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in this life.

I feel that there's something wrong with me -

as though there is just something in the lives of everyone else's that just isn't in mine.

Like a secret.

Except I'm just not in on it.

It feels like everybody else just understands who they are, what they are, who they want to be and what they want to do.

Everyone else is normal. Everyone else is the same.

Everyone else is HUMAN.

Everyone else is NORMAL.

But what does that mean?

What does it mean to be NORMAL and HUMAN?

Am I NORMAL?

No. I don't feel normal.

I feel like my head and my mind is filled with thoughts, ideas and feelings that no body else has.

That there is something wrong with me and me alone.

I feel so lonely. Like an alien observing everyone else and how they live their lives.

But why do I feel as though I'm the only one in this world who feels how I feel?

I feel so alone.

I don't know how to act. I don't know how to feel. I don't know who I am and what I am here for.

I feel so abnormal.

And by feeling so, I feel as though as I am different from everyone else that is normal.

I am something entirely other.

But how do I explain this when I don't entirely understand it myself?

I can't understand my feelings, can't understand my thoughts.

Is something wrong with me?

I feel alone.

I AM alone.

But wait -

normal?

What does the word normal even mean?

Maybe everyone else feels too how I feel?

Maybe we all feel abnormal inside but are too afraid to speak out about how we feel.

What if there was no such thing as normal?

Maybe the normal I imagine in my mind is just some false idea of what and who we should be.

But isn't that how everyone feels?

Do I have to be 'normal' to be human?

What if I just 'am' - that that's all I have to be?

What if my abnormalities and my worries are what makes me human.

Maybe my feelings and my alien nature just makes me..

'Different'

But different still makes me feel so

Alone.

Still makes me worry that there is something wrong with me.

Something wrong with who I am.

But wait -

Does being human have any predetermined definition?

A label which tells us how we have to feel?

Maybe I am normal

Maybe being human just means I have a body, a brain, a mind and a soul.

Maybe the way I feel everyday is MY normal.

Is that even allowed?

It feels as though my 'normal' has to be the same as everybody else's.

What the world makes it out to be -

if you're not like everybody else you're not normal.

I want my normal to be me.

I want my normal to be whatever I choose it to be.

Maybe - just maybe I won't feel alone if I'm happy with me.

I can be happy with my own normal.

I don't have to be 'normal'.

I'm just me.

Maybe we all only need to be just who we are -

That no body else can tell us how we're supposed to feel or look or be.

I think that's how I want my life to be.

I don't want to feel alone.

I don't want to feel 'wrong', and 'abnormal'.

I want to just be me.

Because me is right.

Me

Is my normal.

And that is just who I need to be.

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