Growing up pt.2

Growing up is seeing the potential of your future,

It is realizing how you never truly go back to not working, and how daunting that is,

Growing up is not settling for mediocre sex with people who don't care about your body or mind,

It is about learning from your past mistakes, by seeing them in your current situation,

Growing up is accepting your friends will choose other plans over you and that is okay,

It is learning about yourself and how much energy can be given to them,

Growing up is understanding some friends will be bonded more by history than commonality,

It is acknowledging the positive and negative energies shared by those friends, and whether they are worth keeping around,

Growing up is understanding that friends hold different spaces in your life,

It is accepting that most of your friendships arent 100% friends and that is okay,

Growing up is the ability to see the whole picture and whether the effort is worth the result,

It is choices, so many choices,

Growing up is understanding who your parents are and the traits you have from both of them,

It is battling between the two versions of yourself,

Growing up is realizing no matter the life you create, there will always be anxieties and problems in front of you to some compacity,

It is battling the urge to spend money on silly things to feel some sense of control,

Growing up is the reality of your dreams being heavier then the concept,

It is dying your hair to feel some sort of change,

Growing up is now understanding what people meant when they said that high school kids are not adults, even if you disagreed at that age,

It is realising people are having or have kids at your age even if you still feel like a kid yourself,

Growing up is easily dealing with something you once thought was gross,

And crying to yourself when your car insurance raises for no good reason,

Growing up is waking up feeling a certain way, then deciding to disregard what your body is telling you.

Growing up is choosing to live in another place where you grew up,

It is understanding what people mean by childhood bliss, even if you didnt feel blissful at that age,

Growing up is spending holidays alone or in unconventional ways,

It is rationalizing the big things,

Growing up is attempting to pay off your credit card every month while dreaming of your next travel destination,

It is realizing, you will not love everything about your chosen partner,

Growing up is coming up on the years that you spent dreaming about and not being where you thought you would be,

It is wanting an established friend group without being fully established yourself,

Growing up is finding hobbies that fill you up and actively making time for them,

It is one unexpected life cost after the other,

Growing up is realizing attempting to be vulnerable after previous experiences is hard,

It is learning how to clean a bathtub and that it sucks to do!

Growing up is realizing that protecting your happiness and peace is far more important then letting in someone who aims to harm it,

Growing up is understanding why everything sold is geared towards healing your body, because taking care of your body is everything.

It is if you are chasing a dream, you will also be chasing sleep,

Growing up is finding your friends by finding your interests,

It is inviting people to things you want to do in hopes they also want to do it too,

Growing up is realizing, not all your money should be saved for when your retired and everything hurts, to live in all the big and small ways you can,

Growing up is seeing the beauty in different ages both what is in front of you and the years you have already passed.

It is getting to decide how you want to live in each day while balancing the things you have to do versus want to do,

Growing up is questioning whether you should crawl back into bed or make it.

It is surviving off snacks while being tired of cooking dinner,

Growing up is realizing if someone doesn't want to make the effort to be in your life, you don't want or need them there.

It is no longer putting up with the red flags because you feel lonly,

Growing up is when you would rather be winding down at 8pm instead of about to go out,

It is when you do go out and live like you once did, you need 3-5 business days to recover,

Growing up is buying and building out your home and pantry,

It is dreading the next time you have to move everything you just built,

Growing up is those every few month catch up calls with your long term friends,

And doing everything you can to support them, while trying to not ruin your PTO.

Growing up is realizing normal 9-5s or day jobs are meant to marginalize your dreams instead of help create them.

It is understanding that if it is not the goal, then its just a means to get there,

Growing up is realizing, people will believe what you tell them, and be inspired when you show them.

It is appreciating when someone actually cares about one another at their job,

But does not give in to the B.S to those not respecting your time or energy.

Growing up is playing Tetris with you hair on the shower wall,

And remembering to clear the hair out when water starts wading at your ankles,

Growing up is understanding that two truths can exist at the same time. You can love someone and know when it has run it course, and that's okay.

It is getting excited about the possibility of something, just for it to burn out equally as fast.

Growing up is something that hurts your feelings to your core, because it felt like something that happened when you were a child, but has shaped you differently.

It's learning to ask what you need, then being told what you need, then taking your time to learn what was actually needed.

Growing up is understanding you have to choose your hard,

it is realizing that your friends may not prioritize their time with you as much as you do with them,

Growing up is learning to keep in touch with longterm friends while making new ones, and valuing the time with both.

It is noticing most of the time you hang out, food is involved.

Growing up is knowing nobody will believe in your dream as much as you,

And nobody will love you more then your parents do ( hopefully this relates to you)

Growing up is realzing, your mom is your best friend and that is not something to ever be ashamed of, because if you have this, you are lucky.

It is remembering you're their biggest achievement and your growth is theirs, keep them updated on your life and tell them you love them.

Growing up is realzing they wont always be in your life, while you notice aging taking parts of them away from you.

It is valuing the time and expereinces spent with them, because you cant make up moments, even if it isnt timely,

Growing ups is realizing the prices that make something a home,

And what the luxury of having a place to call home is,

Growing up is chasing that feeling to feel childlike joy again,

Then watching yours or other children experience it in front of you, while you absorb their second hand enjoyment.

Growing up is battling the urge to have the unconditional love of a pet, while fighting with the loss of flexibility with it,

It is spending most of your time alone and trying to feel comfortable with it.

Growing up is buying the parts but not setting it up until you need it,

It is buying perishable food item only for them to go bad before you want them.

Growing up is turning down your thermostat to save on costs, then wrapping up in layers until you cave.

It is appreciating the convenience over the cost of most things,

Growing up is realzing there is always dishes or laundry to do,

and avoiding them at all costs,

Growing up is understanding why an 18 year old is a kid, 10 years later,

It is wondering why they still send all your bills in paper then contemplate how or if you should keep them,

Growing up is taking photos and videos of everything because you dont want to forget, while wishing the moments weren't as easily disposable,

it is paying for all the extra subscriptions and battling whether it worth it or not.

Growing ups is not going out with someone out of logic more then temptation,

It is dreaming and being disappointed on the daily,

Growing up is learning that adaptability is everything and those who practice it will always be growing,

It is knowing you need a regular sleep schedule while consistently not following through with having one.

Growing up is having 8 USBC cords, but certain ones only work with certain devices,

It is planning to make dinner when you are hungry and by the time you do everything else, its three hours later.

Growing up is everything being on either and subscription or an app,

It is turning off the hum of technology, just to turn it back on out of convienance.

Growing up is procrastination embedded with matters of importance.

It is understanding why your mom told you to defrost the hamburger for that when she got home.

Growing up is forgetting to wash your swimsuit after you wrapped it in a towel, until the smell reminds you,

It is taking a week to do something, that if you just had focused on it, it would have been done in an hour.

Growing up is remembering to check in on others, the way you wished they would check in on you,

It is agreeing and disagreeing with Grammarly's Suggestions,

Growing up is going grocery shopping only to eat out instead of cooking the food you just bought!

It is understanding the luxury of owning your own appliances, especially when you don't have them.

Growing up is accepting chagbt is smarter than you and to accept the fate of AI.

It is trying to keep up with all your passwords, but inevitably pressing new password button when it doesn't work.

Growing up is going out and doing a lot of things alone, then appreciating the times that you don't have to do it alone,

It is wishing you had the maturity of your late 20s in your early 20s.

Growing up is noticing how full your life can be, while still feeling lonely occasionally.

It is hearing a toddler scream their lungs out in a public place and think to yourself, " same kid, same".

Growing up is trying to prioritize where and how you should spend your money smartly, then going out to eat because you dont want to cook.

It is pretending you are fine, because the copay is too much.

Growing up is early lower back problems when you dont do anything to help it,

It is thinking to yourself, you should probaly start stretching daily,

Growing up is puting your grocery bags int he car, then forgetting them till your at the checkout,

It is missing a hug from someone you will never see again.

Growing up is loosing your scissors when you need them, then finding all of them when you dont,

it is hating having to change the duvet cover when you change your sheets.

Growing up is having all the clothes, but none of them feeling like your style,

It is your taste buds changing and now you like salad with Ranch and Caesar.

Growing up is exhasting, but there is also so many good things to come from it.

It is the most freeing and lonly experience.