From Across the Room

Navy blue tee with no design, Black jacket with white stripes, white shoes, Black Jeans. Looks like he liked black and white combo. I liked him as he wore my favourite color tee. We all like someone if they do, wear, talk what we like. we tend to connect to commonality. I felt the same while staring at a guy across the room.

I realized, he was the guy who had come to see me formally , as in marriage proposal. Didn't know much about him, seeing him first time. His smile, the excitement to meet me was totally depicted in his eyes. There was a rush in me that said want to talk to this man, hold his hand, travel together, like his likes, choose his choices.

I was feeling this weird, amazing feeling when i looked at the specs guy standing checking on the details. I was nervous, I wanted to talk to him. I wanted him to talk to me. There was this feeling inside of me that say, may be he is the guy for you. His nice hair, the specs that made him look soo studious, his nature of being soo kind and patient depicted when he stood calmly and checked on the details. He was sweet, helpful, he finds himself alone, holding the phone checking something.

I was just feeling a connect. I wanted him to look at me once. I wanted him to see me, ask me how am i doing? tell me that what i am feeling , is what he is understanding. He is smiling, and his smile is making me blush. I think my first crush had come true. This is what it feels like, when you like someone. This is what it takes to think to any extent when you really like a guy by your side.

I thought first, should I marry him? Or date him. Will he be fine if i go say hi? let me try a reason to talk to him, by asking some details. does he have a clue? will he know? " i don't want him to know, but i want him to know ", is a mixed feeling i was feeling. My heart wasn't thinking, all Him is what my brain could think through. whenever he was just turning, i would point my head down, or look into my phone so that he wouldn't notice me observing him. I wanted him to see me though.

I want him to hold me, talk to me, feel me. I wanted to see how his lips moved when he spoke. I wanted to see his eyes behind those glasses. Those black eyes with a beautiful smile. His smile made me so happy, was making me blush. Every time he would bend down to pick some stuff or stand to move , I would feel he is coming at me. I want him to come near me, sit beside me, look into my eyes, talk to me. I would feel shy, my heart would pound ,nowhere to go. I wanted to have those swirled butterfiles inside my stomach.

After a while, i hear a " HI" , from across the door, I look- there he is. Waiting by the door, smiling- wishing to come inside to meet me. to greet me. I looked at him with a short smile, I was all speechless. I was not in that place. My heart was hounding so loudly. I was shy, head was twirling. I wanted to leave the home. I could not handle soo many people looking at us. I wanted him to take me somewhere alone. before i could even tell him what i was feeling, he comes to me ," wanna go out?".

Wow . that was something you wished isn't it. You wanted to just leave with him and he asked the same. my heart felt sooo light. I just wanted to hold his hand and move. I wanted to walk down the aisle but here with him. I wanted to say yes, lets go. I am all waiting imagining so many things. but all i could do was smile. I did not even utter a word. He held my hand with his, the moment that happened, my fear is gone. I feel relived. I feel super shy, my stomach aches. I feel very different. I liked the touch. I felt it. I wanted him to hug me . I wanted him to hold me tight forever. It was the best feeling, my heart felt complete. He took me out, introduced to couple of people as his own. I mean i did not know he would already like me before telling me as well. This was a surprise.

He Liked my gesture. My smile. My talking. This was his explanation. He added and said ," I liked you because of your talking. I saw you across the room talking to your friends. Your smile, the naughtiness is just pretty. can you start talking ." I was stunned. Until now i thought i was the one who was observing him, I was the one who wanted him to come down to me and talk, hold me , hug me. But here I happen to know the guy i think i like, already likes me. Wow that is a jackpot isnt it. For how many , this has happened so instantly, that you wish something for and you got it? I am lucky. I got lucky. Though i was speechless, I spoke in my smile. I was expressive. My eyes were always looking at him. I watched him all night. I wanted to see how he would care for me. how he would take me out. I wanted his care. I wanted his hug. I wanted him to stay for a while. I was feeling soo many things at once, I was not able to figure out what is going on.

Am I in love? Is this called love or just a crush? Is this temporary, will it fade. What if he is not the one i am feeling right now? what if this beautiful different feeling i have fades with time. Will i still want him? what him he doesnt care for me? what if he gets bored of me. Whats the biggest want in life from a guy? I wanted him as him, the same beautiful smile behind the glasses. Lips closed, he was the studious nicest silent man i know. He is smart, silent and also funny in a way. What if he had the feeling for me changes? what if he stops liking me, loving me, caring for me? soo many thoughts were running in my mind that night. I did not know what will be his answer. I only remember a bye, see you soon in the end. I wanted a hug, I wanted him to comfort me saying this will be rest of our lives. I wanted a commitment. I wanted him to stay.

From then to 2 years now, I have been married and still I get the same butterflies when he comes near me, speaks to me. I still blush when he buys me flowers, I still faint when he hugs me, kiss me. I have this feeling that i made the right choice marrying this man. He is patient, caring, loving and i want him to be mine for the rest of my life.

His care is extreme. Love is extreme. He is so cautious in looking over me. His patience to my anger- my god unbelievelable controllable. He is good in his actions, calm in his nature, keeps a look out for me, for the home, family. His behaviour is very very adjusting anywhere with anyone for that matter. Never ever i have seen such selfless humble very pure heart man in my life. He is one and only and now he is mine. This gives me super goosebumps all the time. I hear the noise in my ears say " he is right next to you, lucky me", my stomach is filled with those early butterflies moving whenever he cares for me, kiss me, hugs me. The newness, shyness still persists. I feel blessed in everyway, I feel lucky. The feeling of having someone for you, in your life is amazing when it happens. It is pure. It is nice. I always make sure i dont hurt him, control over my anger, expect less and yet have a beautiful expectations full life. He is all there to fulfil.

He lets me , be me. He respects my independance, he cares for my thoughts, he understands my emotions, he selflessly cares for me with my other habits. He is friends with my friends. I just have zero complaints on him. In every way, he is the Man any woman wishes for. He is my guy. when i say this , I proudly say. He is self made, all he has done till date is by his own hardwork, his own responsibilities, his hard working money. He has no expectations from anyone. This is more romantic to me. His responsibilities that he does on his won. More sexy about him is , he does not expect anything from anyone. Can anyone do that? it is amazing.

Every point in my life, I thank god for having me this man in my life. He is smart, he is handsome, his nature gives me beautiful tickling feeling, his actions makes me shy, the way he does his duties or responsibilities makes me romantic, he is more sexy when he just be himself , without expecting anything . I love my man from every inch and will always do so.

This is the man i saw across the room, the same eyes , still and will always give me that shyness, this is the man I dated for a year, married, have a house, stay with him, and this after marriage life has been the most amazing part of my life. There is still that spark, there is still romance in us, there is still that energy that keeps me going to do a lot lot more for him, for us.

I love you, my love :) then , now, always :)

-HU