Embrosia

When i finally laid down and closed my eyes, in that moment is when I realized i was no longer in my bed. I was transported to a dense never ending darkness. Out of nowhere the walls started to run water. In my heart and soul no fear existed but in my body it kept me from moving other than my head looking upward at the mysterious edges where the water trickled down. Finally regaing control of myself i noticed the water filling up quickly at my feet. To keep from drowning i stripped down to my undergarments and floated on top of the water taking deep easy breaths to keep my body afloat and my mind at ease. Float up float up is all i can say in my mind with my eyes closed. If i can just float up maybe there will be an end at least I wont drown with the constant filling of the water. Even with my eyes closed (being a gift of the water sign) I can see the water under me get deeper and deeper pushing me through what I now know was a hole of my creation. My darkness that I let swallow me whole. I opened my eyes and I see a bright light. it was so bright i couldnt help but stare hoping that its not an illusion that im really almost out of this water. Ive been holding myself up for so long my body is so numb. It all feels natural. My heart is struck with amazment once i reached the top of the water I swam under to get to the ledge to pull myself onto the grass. Wow, this land is the most beautiful land ive ever seen and the grass is so soft! Its so GREEN! The animals arent afraid of me and the trees are filled with foods! I am so amazed at the sight that I almost forgot I’m here alone. I turn around to see my amazing Man standing there my eyes fill with tears of joy! I look into the water and see my relextion to only realize the water wasn’t water at all but my tears for, when i cried happy tears the river started to drain. The river was filling because of all the tears ive been crying alone. Seeing my children behind my Man my life was complete. Thats how this felt. But, would this feeling last forever or will it fade away as if it were never really there. I ask myself that a lot. Right now ill choose to live in this fantasy dream.