Dorothy, To Him, To Me
Museum Musing, Oct 2024, Philadelphia Art Museum, 100 words
How surprised I was to find your face had been photographed 59 years before I was born, your eyes staring out intently at unknown me, a future you will never know and I cannot fathom from your perspective.
You looked at him. You love him. He put you on display.
I will never know your face other than a small square, your name is immortalized on a card but only in the way where we do not think about our art being buried one day. But for now I look at you, through time, frame, glass, him, lens, light, you.
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Ariana GonBon
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Comments (2)
It is interesting just how quickly connection can be made through the eyes in a photograph or painting - like the beginnings of time travel
Interesting thoughts. I'm curious who this person is/was to you or if they were simply unknown?