DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES?

If you are here with me again, THANK SO MUCH! Looks like you want to know more as to what took place post proposal. Well, get comfortable, take a breath, grab some tissues and let’s get to the story. If you don’t mind, I like to repeat a little bit of what already been said. I love my current boyfriend a whole lot. We have been through our ups, downs, lefts, rights, sideways, but no matter what, we always loved each other and wanted the best for the other’s future. This is where we are going to continue the blog, Reader, if you are ready?

So after shopping for the ring, (oh yea, it’s probably a good time to mention, I didn’t pick out a ring as yet…I was looking for specific design and I wanted to represent what his love means to me, and I was so honored not only did he pick me to be his wife, but he allowed me to pick out my ring as well.) Moving along, with all the excitement, I didn’t find the right opportunity to tell my boyfriend of five years that I connected through coffee with my Ex. Besides, why ruin good news with saying something bad, right, Reader? So later that same evening, after his friends have come by and we celebrating the news with them, the phone rings. Since he was the closest to the phone, he answered. The entire mood of being happy and excited talk came crashing down around me in the next five minutes. He turned to me and said to me,

“Your boyfriend is on the phone, he wants to talk to you.”

Dumbfounded, I took the phone and said,

‘Hello? Who is this?’ only be greeted with a dial tone, the kind of tone that comes on when you hang up the phone. I was so upset, I asked my boyfriend if he was pulling my leg that somebody actually told him that they were my boyfriend, knowing fully that I chose current boyfriend to be my future husband. He gets visibly (and granted, understandably) upset with saying,

‘I go away for month and even though you knew I was with friends, you go behind my back and talk to somebody else, so much so that they label themselves as your boyfriend?’

Still reeling at the very thought that somebody was trying to sabotage his and my relationship, I started to reason with him saying,

‘That’s NOT true, I talked him one time over coffee and that was it…promise’

Reader, tell me how the phone rang several times after this, and as it rang for the sixth time (neither of us wanting to pick up the phone at this point) my future fiancé had gotten so upset with me, he had stormed out of the house in anger and frustration. He didn’t even give me a chance to tell him what happened between Ex and I, as in our past history and how (or even why) I had reconnected with him again. He didn’t even want to hear that we went to coffee, or the fact, over coffee, that Ex knew about my plans of marrying my current boyfriend or that even though we had a month and five days apart, that I would have never have given up on him like that! My future with my current boyfriend (who still in my mind; my future husband) is starting to look bleak. I attempted to reach out to him and tell him I still love him and that I only my life with him and nobody else. Reader, this has unfortunately to this day has fallen on deaf ears. He refuses to accept the fact that Ex and I are just that, exes. He continues to think that there was more than just coffee and that I was secretly wanting to be with Ex this whole time.

Reader, this is 100x false. I don’t care about Ex in this regard. I don’t have any feelings for Ex. He can move on with his life and I wouldn’t really care as much as more. Yes, those thoughts of the radio DJ are still on my mind of reconciling with Ex, just to know that I didn’t want any ill will between us, but I only wanted to reach out to him to let him know that we though we were exes, I am still his friend at the end of the day. But hear this, Reader, I certainly do not want to have animosity between me and my current boyfriend/future husband either. So, if I have to continue on this journey of life without knowing what the future will bring me next, and if it has to be without the love of my future husband, I am willing to do whatever it takes for me to get back with him and back to him wanting me to his future bride once again. **Reader, quick, do you recall the title of this blog…? Not to worry, I will re-post a piece of it here for you now … “…BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES?”* With all that was written so far, Reader, I wrote down these thoughts, hoping that he will read this (seeing as though, he still refuses to listen to me talk), and that he FINALLY knows the whole truth of what actually happened that day when I admit, was foolish on my part, to talk to my Ex in the first place.

That concludes this blog, dear Reader. Are you still here with me? If you are, a BIG THANK YOU once again for coming on this journey with me. Again, I appreciate you to take the time to reading this blog. I look forward to tossing some thoughts in my head, put my heart on the line once again and write another blog for y’all to enjoy.

Until then,

THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN, READER …. onwards the next blog…