DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES?

I know I don’t deserve it, but I am human. I believe in making mistakes no doubt…but I mean there is NO SUCH THING as perfection, really. Even if you have the belief that you are created in God’s image and His likeness, there still is no such thing as being absolutely no thing as being perfect. With all that said, I want you to know, dear Reader, that when it comes to building relationships, its hard to keep it completely sometimes.

To kickstart this blog: I have been in a committed relationship with my boyfriend of five years. I love him dearly. If given the opportunity, I would no doubt accept it if he had got down on one knee and asked me to marry him, my answer would be an astounding yes! Now over the course of five years, Reader, understand this; there have been a share of ups, downs, lefts, rights, and sideways, but through it all, I can truly tell you, we would find a way to make it work and continue to be there for each other, both wanting the best for the other and wanting to build a better future. From time to time, though, we took breaks of each other, we would spend time apart just so we are not stepping on each other’s toes. Sometimes, he would leave home and go spend time with his friends, all the while, I would be at home, waiting for him to come home again. There would be maybe two or three days, he would go, and not call, but that’s okay with me. I knew he was safe and with friends. I knew in my heart, I had nothing to worry about. One day however; he had gone to his friends’ house and as he left, it felt different, Reader. I felt like there was a piece of me missing that day…I can’t really explain how I was feeling…anyway, long story short, as the three days went by, and he didn’t come home…understandably I was worried. Now it’s been a month, and I still haven’t heard from him. I am getting worried now…but I still kept in mind, he was still with friends and assumed he was still safe…more on this later on. First, **a little backstory…I am and have always been a friendly person. I believe it’s acceptable to talk to people, no matter who it is. Let me give you example as to what I mean by this: I keep in touch with my friends and believe or not, even my enemies, or my exes.** So with that in mind, I officially begin this blog, Reader, by letting me take you back to the month of July of this year (2020). I was on Facebook and I had been looking through my previous posts and other things that Facebook offers, all the while, I am listening to the radio. In time, the radio DJ happens to come on the radio and announces that he had reconciled with one of his exes who had diagnosed with Covid-19, and shortly before passing away, he went on to say that even though they were exes, they were able to put aside their differences and was able to make peace with one another. He concluded by saying something to the effect of, ‘if there was somebody in your life you want make peace with, do it now, because you will never know what tomorrow brings due to these unknown circumstances of Covid-19’… Reader, I don’t have ill will to any of my friends, enemies, or even my exes…so while on Facebook, I had come across one of my exes’ profile. Thinking back of the memories I had with him, I was curious to know what was up to and wanted to know whether or not he was married now and what kind of life he was living now. With my boyfriend MIA, I haven’t given up him, Reader, please understand this. I still love him and care for him with all my heart and again, still would marry him without hesitation.

Now faced with this Facebook profile; whilst keeping in mind what that DJ had said, it struck me that I didn’t want a day go by with old feelings or differences or whatnot to go on, remember the line: ‘you will never know what tomorrow brings due to these unknown circumstances of Covid-19’? Okay so with that said, Reader, I tell you I wanted to know what Ex was up to. He surprised me by telling me he never got married nor did he have any more kids (he had two from previous relationships). After getting over the shock that I was connecting with him, he went on to say to me, without realizing it, he says that he had waited for me to come back in his life and wanted to build a future with me. He suggested we have coffee, and seeing no harm in this, I had agreed. Through coffee, I had told him about my relationship status, and how much I love my present boyfriend and how would love to marry him one day. Ex acknowledged this and says he happy for me and disappointed that he had missed his chance to be “the one”. Days went on, and believe it or not, Reader, my boyfriend finally had come home, one month and five days later that is. He says to me it was sorry for not coming home the usual three days and it took longer this time around, but if I was willing to forgive him, that we could get past this, that we could get married, if I was still wanting to. OMG READER…THIS IS IT! THIS IS THE MOMENT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR FIVE YEARS! I COULDN’T BELIEVE IT! MY DREAMS WERE FINALLY COMING TRUE! So, we went shopping for the ring. I was over the moon happy! In the midst of all this, Reader, Ex was long forgotten, I didn’t think about him not once after that one day of having coffee. Wasn’t even a thought in my head, nothing. SOOOOOOOOOOO, tell me how this event had taken place….

Ahhh, sorry dear Reader, looks like you will have to stay tuned to my next blog to what happens next… for those who have taken this journey with me up until this point, thank you so much. I sincerely appreciate you coming on this journey with me! Onwards to the next blog….