Dear Future Husband

Hey Honey,

If you're reading this that means you have an interest in me and you're wondering how to go about asking me out. So I decided to write a letter to the man who plans on marrying me, which hopefully is you. You're either a psycho yourself or you're just a truly awesome man who is willing to learn how to love me the correct way. Whichever it may be, get ready for a wild ride of crazy, awkward antics. Clearly I don't know who you are yet but I decided to write you a letter to inform you on how to handle little Miss LeAnn.

Not sure if it's my awesomely wild personality you like or my crazy awkwardness, which ever it is I'm glad I peaked your interest. Now that I've got your attention I guess I should inform you on the craziness you're about to experience. There's a lot of layers to me and so much crap you've gotta dig through to get to the core of my being. I'm a tough cookie to crack but once you do I'm a totally awesome kind of weirdo. My looks help draw guys in but my personality usually scares them off. I can be quite mean at times and it's never intentional it's mostly to protect myself so I don't end up hurt.

A few things you need to know about me before you even consider dating me is I'm bipolar type II. I know mental illness is a use deal for some people and that I completely understand but it doesn't define me, it's just one part of who I am. It does come with a lot of bad and good days, the good days are really great but the bad days are very dark and sometimes hard to deal with. You've got to be completely understanding or else there's no way you'll last being with me, you'll simply drive yourself crazy. I'm extremely hard headed, I'm very independent, and like doing everything on my own. Asking for help is not something I do, I feel like I'm invincible, like I'm capable of doing any and everything all on my own. Simply just insist that I let you do it, or just do it without me seeing, surprise me and you'll win my heart over quite fast.

Music helps me on my really bad days, sending me random YouTube videos will light up my world. Grabbing me and taking me on a long drive with your favorite playlist blasting out of the stereo helps sooth my soul. Life seems complicated with me sometimes because I shut down and keep to myself a lot but it's because I need time to myself to recuperate from having to interact with other humans. Just sitting in silence, maybe watching a movie with me is all I need. I'm not a touchy feely type of person but if you grab my hand or my waist I wont ever get mad, it'll actually make me feel loved; just don't hold it too long because then I get uncomfortable.

Hopefully you're keeping up, if you're still reading this then I'm assuming I haven't scared you off which is a good thing. I may not be the romantic type but I do love locally picked flowers, hand written notes, and cheesy gestures. I absolutely hate eating in front of people, please don't try to take me out on dates to eat and please don't ask me to cook for you. Although I know how to cook I simply don't enjoy it and it makes me quite uncomfortable. I'd prefer it if you did the cooking, but don't worry I love to clean and I love doing laundry so you'll never have to worry about a messy home.

Never offer to buy me something it also makes me uncomfortable, if you want to buy me something, just do it. Asking me puts me in a really weird state of mind and I don't like that. I prefer if you just tell me what to do as oppose to asking. Such as, if you want to go see a movie simply say, "Hey babe get dressed I'm coming to get you," instead of saying "Hey what you want to do tonight," because my reply will always be "nothing." I know this seems like a lot but in order for you to get a better read on who I am as a person these are the basics of LeAnn.

After you get past all of this there's a very goofy, funny, super charming lady hidden underneath this dark and twisted shell. I never go long periods of being mad, something might piss me off and I might tell you off but 5 minutes later I'll be crawling in your lap asking if we're okay. I don't stay mad and I hope you don't either. I hate fighting and I hate confrontation. All I ask is honesty even if it pisses me off, I'll get over it quick especially since you're telling me the truth. Hopefully this didn't scare you off. But here's to you my future husband, I look forward to our life together.