Dear Diary

It’s not you it’s me is heard across the world in so many different languages. Personally I’ve never said the words it’s not you it’s me but I have heard it. It’s not you it’s me...humm now what could that person mean by that statement. So you ask well at least for me I asked, “what do you mean it’s not you it’s me”? There’s an occurred silence and there’s this huge elephant in the room that’s has entered the room.

It’s not you it’s me is like an rhetorical question basically but you want to know what it is.

It’s not you it’s me is basically say it’s over, am I right or am I wrong, inquiring minds want to know for the hundred of thousand of millions of people out there who has heard the words it’s not you it’s me want to know what it is about you that I don’t already know. Especially if you’ve been with a person intimately and have grown to love and appreciate that person. You’ve formed a bond you grown together built one another up and have really true unconditional love the kind of love that’s very dangerous. By dangerous I mean you have invested so much into that person not financially but emotionally. All of sudden there’s a red flag thrown at you it’s not you it’s me. I had to catch myself before the sentence came out my mouth to say whatever it is we can fix it. Oh no but wait that person doesn’t even know because they still haven’t answered the question the elephant in the room wants to know too since it’s standing there. You, the other person and the elephant are all standing there waiting. The music from Jeopardy is playing.................

Still no answer I’ll continue once I get an answer.

Ok I’m back still no answer. It’s almost as if you’re looking at yourself in the mirror and say to yourself “it’s not you it’s me “. You look at yourself and say, ok now what is it? So I did and what I came up with is maybe it sounds good to be in a relationship. Maybe it’s me because I like my space to do whatever I want, come and go as I please. How about I like being single and not waste anymore of their time. That’s what I came up for myself but as far as the other person I have not gotten an answer. I don’t think it’s to hard to self evaluate since we are talking about you.

I’ve been giving myself a really hard time because I missed something in this relationship. The it’s not you it’s me came in my relationship. Now I’m wondering what have I done but wait the other person said it’s not you it’s me. Why is it I’ve come to the conclusion of what have I done? That doesn’t make sense to wonder what have I done . Now I have to keep telling myself it’s not me it’s really is the other person and this isn’t what they want. Now I can say ok so let’s not waste anymore time on this topic or this relationship and go our separate ways. Then here comes a new statement that’s not what I’m trying to say. Really?

The game of confusion is a game I hate to play. I’m not about to say is it someone else? Whatever it is we can fix it or how about I give you your space. Space? Either you know or you don’t know.

I will say this I’m not about to be sitting and waiting for you to figure it out. I’ve got to much going for myself. I know my worth and I know what I want. I thought it was that person but you can’t force someone to be with me.

Love isn’t enough and it not fair if you’re the only person in the ring fighting for your relationship. The elephant has finally left the room along with the other person who stated it’s not you it’s me and then turns to you and says I hope we can still be friends. The elephant turns around and sprays him with water to bring him down to reality.