Confusion never ends

Honestly, i dont know what to do and what am meant to be, say, or write. My life is like a maze, a puzzle that am trying very hard to figure out, and no matter how hard i try i just keep getting lost.

I see people on instagram, tickok e.t.c, and they all have their life together, they figured out what they wanted to do to be, and am here confused. I tell people and they tell me "ask ur friends and family for help, y'all will figure it out together" but all they do is tell me" You got time", i know i have time but at least a hint. i read articles and children of 6 and 7 are getting successful for some very smart ideas and am like why didnt i think of that. I dont know what to do am stuck and i dont think i will ever know what to do. I feel like time is running out, i have been thinking about everything for like 2 years now and still nothing.

When i tell people my problem they say stuff like "you're a teenager enjoy life" but am trying to, don't get me wrong i love having fun but sometimes i just wonder things like this time am using to have fun what if i do something productive will i be successful, i think about my future and i have dreams like everyone else but i have to work for the dream. i keep thinking stuff like will i regret my childhood if i play now, will i ruin my future, and up till now i still haven't figured it out am still confused and i hate this. I think about getting a job now to like save money so in the future i have enough, but to get a job as a young girl who is still trying to figure out how to balance her educational and personal life, its really hard.

A choice can ruin your entire life and that same choice can be someone's happiest decision, we have to be very careful about what we do and how we do it cause sometimes the simplest, easiest something is what makes people fall. Life isn't really a game, it's not something you fail and get another life, we get one life and that's it that's all we get so brains is needed and for someone as confused as me, i don't think it's easy. Is life really that hard tho or are we making it difficult for ourselves? life itself is a question no one can figure out. i need help, i need strength I need support to get through this and i know life ain't really as confusing to some people as it may be t others but to me, it's the most confusing thing i have ever been through.

The one thing i learned from all the thinking i did is that everyone"s views thought and beliefs are different so the way am handling things ain"t the way my friends are handling thing and is also different from the way Michell Obama was handling things so we really do need to think really hard before talking or picking stuff cause that can really go against what someone else is thinking or beliving and may hurt their cause a lot has happened since 2019 its 2022 now and everything still feels new and weird. Be careful.

They ain't no easy way out of it but you can make it easy with the decisions you make, the choices you choose, help a girl out.

Gold.