Breathe..It's Not as Deep as You Think

Reliving past experiences can be daunting but necessary for growth. So I'm going travel back in time and tell you about when I decided to take a risk and live in the moment. Being spontaneous was never my strong suit as well as taking the time to smell the roses. After my divorce, I decided to live a little and dive back into the dating scene. I never dated outside of my race for reasons that made logical sense to me. Being an African-American woman, dating someone of your own race seemed like the ideal thing to do. Plus, I didn't want to feel like a sell-out for crossing into certain territories. Despite my unease with the possible pursuit of someone who wasn't Black I decided to try it. For once, I wanted to be spontaneous.

So I ended up meeting this guy, who happened to be white in the local grocery store. We had been eyeing each other the whole time so I decide to casually introduce myself. What's the harm in that right?? He told me his name was Steve( not really Steve but for privacy lets say that s his name). We talked in the Frozen food section for I don't know how long but the conversation just flowed so I went with it. He asked what I was doing this weekend and I told him not much. He then I asked if I would be interested in meeting up for drinks that Saturday night. I was hesitant at first because I never in my life even talked to a white man or been asked out by one so it was definitely new to me. He was hot and had a great sense of humor so I went for it. We exchanged numbers and went on our way.

I was nervous!!! I hit up my homegirl to let her in on what was about to go down on Saturday. Being that she dated plenty of guys who weren't black she gave me some good advice. For the most part, she told me to be chill and not bring up any racist content because it might cause a riff in the conversation. I was hyped up and ready to see this hottie at the bar. I dressed in some tight fitted jeans and a low cut tee and cute booties. I was ready for some fun. After the divorce, I haven't had any dates so it was my first time back on the dating scene so I had to get my ass in gear if I was gonna land this shit. Steven hit me up and we decided to meet at this bar called O'Shea's in the highlands of Louisville. The crowd was hype so we picked to perfect place to chill and get to know each other. We ended up grabbing sits towards the back of the bar where it was not as loud. We vibin and talking bout everything from our favorite spots around town to work and family. I like this guy. Not only was he Hot as shit but dude had me wanting to jump his bones from the moment he walked in the bar. He looked like the guy the played in Twilight(not Robert Patterson) but Kellan Lutz!!! Steve looked like he worked out everyday and was ready to be a Spartan or some shit but damn I liked it. So after being there for like 2 hours we decided to leave. He asked if I wanted to go back to his place and just chill for a bit. I wasn't ready for the night to end so I was down for it but I texted my homegirl to let her know where I was going. He didn't stay far from the bar so I followed him over to his place.

Needless to say we didn't talk much when we got there. He had a nice place and so we sat on the couch for a bit and had a couple more drinks and one thing led to another. To put it plain, we linked up. It was surprisingly good. I honestly didn't know what to expect but it was a lot better than I anticipated. Basically, this experience taught me to loosen up and there is nothing wrong with trying something new. Try it and if you don't like your not obligated to do it again. The situation wasn't that deep. I was just living in the moment, meeting someone new, and having fun. You only live once.