After a "Failed" Forever Love: It Is Good to Love Again

The Meaning of Forever

Forever is the endless, eternal now moment. Forever is now, was the now that was then, and forever is the now that will be. There is never a moment where forever is somehow gone or ends; it is perpetually here and it is perpetually now. When the one you love confesses their love for you and the two of you agree to love each other forever, it can almost seem like a great lie as you look back and reflect on the relationship now so very distant. After a failed forever love, "forever" takes on a meaning of betrayal and seems to hold no real weight. But I'd like to introduce you to the refreshing truth or at least what I know to be true for myself and my life.

The Perfect Truth

The words that a loved person speaks to you are still echoing endlessly. We can revisit the words in our memories or we can simply soothe ourselves by feeling the truth of everything that we are. And what we are is everyone that we have ever loved, as well as everyone who has ever loved us. They exist within us before our meeting in the physical and after our seeming separation. They are with us forever. When we revisit the great promise a loved one proposed of loving us forever, we should feel the truth of it as that love was there then and it is here now. Regardless of what happened after those words were spoken, in the deepest part of who you are, their promise remains as a beautiful endless song that makes up who you are. I know that for me, it provides me with enough love to fuel me for a lifetime. This is what forever means. There’s no such thing as a failed forever love.

My Personal Experience

The last man I deeply loved was one of the most beautiful people I have ever met. He was like a fictional character that I had created in my mind for years but standing before me in the flesh. It amazed me that he could feel what I have been feeling about trees, green open spaces, water, and the entire natural world. His mannerisms, the way he would express his thoughts, his values, and the things he would express to me were all so beautiful. Every second I kept wondering how his existence was even possible. It was strange and I have never known something more magical. Our time together was the loveliest time of my life. The feeling of someone being the product of all of my best and beautiful thoughts, feelings, and visualizations is absolutely incredible. I think of him now as "the proof" because he showed me that I can cultivate something wonderful on the inside and have it expressed on the outside naturally. His presence in my life proved to me the beauty that this life can permit me. And I swear, after him, everything was beautiful. And it still is, even though we are separate now.

My Experience Continued

We are not together anymore and I am not sure where he is in this world right now but even so, I would never consider our relationship a failure. How can it be a failure when I gained so much? I stepped into the beginning of everything that I am. I learned how to love someone without knowing where they are, what they are doing, or how they feel towards me. It’s a steady love, an honest love, and a perfect love. I hold that love forever. It lives as me and my life is so beautiful because of it. It’s brought me to a point in my life where I appreciate everything and I ask myself every single day “Is this not heaven?”.