“Even during a rainstorm, a beautiful flower will grow.” – ConciouslyMe
I grabbed my go bag and drove off! Wherever the day was going to take me was unknown, but I was off and onward. I warmed up the car and turned on some tunes. I had been listening to the CD my dad made with his band and I gotta admit it felt great to connect with him in that moment.
Storytime:
I loved watching how the music would fuel him. When he dove so deep into the music that his whole being was filled with pure joy. I would simply daze off in adoration. Whether he was performing for us in the living room or playing live shows, one of my favorite bonding moments with him was when I’d shift my focus from his guitar strings to his face and he’d flash his smile at me. That feeling. I lit that man's world up the same way he lifted up mine.
“When I lost my dad, I experienced an unmatched heartbreak. Nothing comes close to it.” – ConciouslyMe
As I reread that quote, I reflect.
"He awoken her heart to love with the intention to break it. Only, he'd failed to do so. She'd already healed her heart from nonsense like that." -ConciouslyMe
As stated in "A Beautiful Beginning After an Ugly Ending." When it came to my past relationship with a narcissist, his false foundation had an ulterior motive driven by jealousy and envy. Thankfully, I caught on to the deception quickly. However, not quick enough to remove myself from harm's way. The most dangerous thing you can do with a narcissist, is see through their illusions. That angers them beyond all reason. tread cautiously.
A narcissist will do anything to keep you within their grasp. Including turning your entire community against you. As a means to isolate you. The most important thing I can share for other narcissist survivors is: Be prepared for rumors and lies to be spread around. Why? Because the only way they can keep up their persona is by ensuring they convince everyone they encounter that you are the crazy one. This one-sided battle will go on relentlessly until the narcissist finally realizes their efforts are going unnoticed, if they notice. A narcissist has the uncanny ability to be so irrational, erratic and self-absorbed that they become engulfed in their exertion tactics to regain control, that they don't notice the harsh reality that nothing will come out of the situation. Even then, it is not guaranteed that your narcissist will ever leave you alone. It's important to remember, that the truth always has a way of rising to the surface. their lies can only last for so long before people start seeing their true colors. Once that occurs, they are off to their next group of supply.
Food for thought: It won't ever matter how many lies a person spreads a about you. People who know you... Know you and anyone who believes the lies of a narcissist isn't anyone you'd want in your inner circle to begin with. likeminded attracts like-minded.
Key Take Away:
Part of my adventures always include the outdoors. Yes, even during a rainstorm. As I parked next to the beautiful cherry blossom, connecting with my dad, I found myself in awe of my own self as I recognized this trees beauty and strength. In that moment, a mirror reflection of myself. Not even a storm can disturb the ebb and flow of a grounded tree. After all the life experiences I have endured. Whether because of my own mistakes or through the sabotage of others... Such like a tree, I too grow and evolve through the storms. Furthermore, just like the tree, I also trim the dead limbs that no longer bear fruit to my sprouts.
After forty-five minutes, I was off to my next direction…..



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