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So Drew, I liked him alot. I thought because we kinda grew up together we would be perfect. I thought that because we came from the streets ok maybe we wont be perfect so it ok we can play the game and be ok. In my head he would be by my side by any means. He was, then it got old.

How could you play yourself. Why would you play yourself. Were you scared of my dad. Hell was you scared of my mom. Who knows? So after all the excitement and finally tired of getting in trouble over someone who didn't even care for them self. I finally decided to explore.

I didn't explore long before I ran into Shay. Did I know Shay before hand? Yes. Did I really know Shay? No. She was a kind soul. Sweet and smart. Those things I knew for sure. She had trouble in her life though just like 50% of teenagers. A part of hers couldn't be helped.

She had family problems. Though she had loving grandparents. I don't remember the whole happening of how we got together. I do remember lots of other things though. So here it is my first actual girlfriend. It was surely an expierence.

Shay's grandfather use to take use to go get scrath offs and if we won he would cash them in for us. Her grandma was a true sweet heart well atleast to me. she always made sure her and her sisters had things they needed. I also ate dinner at her house and man they could cook. More about the actual relationship though.

Like Drew, Shay walked me to class. We use to ditch school and go on dates to the Everblack mall. Evergreen if you don't know the slang name. My mom actually let me go outside more. Even though like some of every parent thought " liking girls was only a faze".

It didn't bother my dad. He just wanted me to be a playa about my moves no matter the sex I chose. You know not give my heart away to just anyone. I will say I used my heart alot anyways. I did want to be a playa but I didn't. Why would I hurt anyone? Just because I come from people who been hurt?

Regardless she didn't need to be hurt. Shay needed love. So I gave her love. She was the first female that actually made me care. She was the first to make me actually care at all. I'm not gone tell all her business though.

So I had been knew her. Our little sisters were once friends. Those friends that were cool because they came same from the neighborhood but would soon grow apart due to getting older and meeting more and new people. No bad ending.I remember going over their house one time for a birthday party. That was was when they still made Shay dress girly.

Yes she was sweet but you could always tell she was a little rough around the edges.

Anywho she was my first female experience all the way around. A good and bad experience. Where should I start?

Ok so when we started dating I was still living with my mom. It was my senior year for sure. Shay's junior year. My mom told me when I turned 18 I had to go. I wont get into that though. Where did I go? To the first place I thought my grandad's place. My father's father. So I went from sneaking guys in my moms to sneaking her into my grandad's place.

Crazy part is that she lived closer to the school. She would come over early morning on the bus. That morning good good with another female was something else. Well for her to be my first I thought it was at the time.

To Be Continued