Exploring Anxiety

Maybe you don’t recognize me, but I certainly know you. Our paths may have already crossed, even if you have not noticed my presence. I’m anxious, and I’m here to talk to you today. This isn’t a video to confuse your mind; it’s more of a test, a journey we’re going to take together. I’m here to help you understand what sometimes seems inexplicable.

It’s natural to feel sadness from time to time, and right now I can’t leave the house, which makes me feel sad too. However, this sadness, accompanied by loneliness, can be overwhelming. It seems that my ability to reason is compromised, and time, once a privilege, now becomes a burden.

In this period of forced inactivity, my mind begins to fill with thoughts that I did not have time to explore before. Doubts arise, as if the path I chose was correct or if I missed opportunities along the way. I feel powerless in the face of events in the world that seem unreachable as I watch time pass.

I stand still, lost, aimless, as if what was once a path turns into a dark, dead-end maze. I find myself alone, with doors around me, all locked. Sometimes I glimpse an exit from the ceiling, a perfect hole, but I can’t reach it alone.

Sometimes I wish a helping hand would come and pull me out of this dark place. However, I do not know what awaits me on the other side, which makes me hesitant. Sometimes I question my own courage to seize that opportunity in case it comes up. Maybe I’m being naive, because it seems like no one cares enough to rescue me. The darkness gradually consumes me, filling my heart with anguish, fear and insecurity.

There comes a point when I can no longer see beauty in anything. Everything around me becomes gray and bland, and my tendency is to complain about everything. I take my cell phone, my only connection to the outside world, but I insist on focusing on the news and the negative parts. Sharing suffering with others makes me feel temporarily connected, even if it’s just sharing sadness.

However, this incessant search for bad news only increases my affliction, and my spirits plummet even more. If I can’t see the world with my own eyes, all I have left is to listen and try to understand how we can get out of this challenging situation. Unfortunately, like me, most people seek distractions to escape from the gloomy global landscape.

So I ask myself, how can we escape this mental labyrinth? How can we find a way out of this darkness that surrounds us? It seems that we are trapped in a room full of constant worries, which fill our hearts with anguish, fear and insecurity.

Time continues to advance relentlessly as we observe, just as karma observes our actions. Sometimes we feel that something important is about to happen, but we don’t know if it’s for good or bad. We live in uncertainty, unable to see the future clearly.

We are trapped in our own world, a mind that never stops questioning, a maze of thoughts without clear answers. Sometimes we stop and we don’t know where to go, as if all the doors we used to see are now locked. What was once a path has turned into a dead end.

However, it is crucial to remember that just like time, this phase will also pass. Everything in life is transitory, and when we overcome these dark moments, we will come out stronger and with a new appreciation for the little things. Valuing the simple things in life, such as breathing deeply, lying on the grass and looking at the sky, having an ice cream or hugging friends and family, becomes essential.

Don’t let the locked doors in your mind keep you from seeing the beauty of simple things. Remember that all this will pass, and we will come out of this experience with a renewed vision of life. As a wise man once said, "That too will pass." So take a deep breath, focus on the present moment and enjoy the little things in life.

And finally, know that you are not alone in this journey. Many people go through similar moments, and it is important to seek support and share their experiences with friends, family or mental health professionals. Connection with others can be a light at the end of the anxiety tunnel.