Taurus Thoughts from a Rhino

The strong but caring Taurus.

Somedays I find that I fit into my astrological sign, and some days I do not.

For context, I find Taurus typically depicted something like:

Those born under the sign of Taurus tend to be grounded and practical. Often they surround themselves with simple beauty and natural lifestyles. They are consistent and conservative, preferring stability over change in their lives. They can be hard-headed or stubborn, much like the animal used to depict them. They rely on commitment and do not handle change well. Typically low energy you can usually depend on them to plod through life on the same usual course. Good with money and savings. Have a bad habit of self-sabotaging and can have short tempers.

Personally, as someone with borderline personality disorder (sometimes referred to as emotional regulation disorder) and inattentive attention deficit hyperactive disorder, my life is always a bit chaotic. In some places, I truly embrace this, and in others, it is my enemy.

I work very hard to be grounded, and I will continue to do so moving forward. I work so hard for it because I find I am very rarely grounded. I will not dispute that I prefer some consistency in aspects of my life, especially my relationships and security. I also despise monotony and will regularly change my wallpaper, move around a room that feels stale, or reorganize aspects of my life. It is a bit of a juxtaposition. My house regularly could be described as ‘there was a struggle’ and I despise it… but don’t often do much to change it. For these reasons, I chose the online brand of “MTNrhyno” or mountain rhino. It is a desire to be grounded and practical in how I approach life, to work towards those goals with a short-sighted view, and to do so without hesitation. Much like the rhino (or bull) charging I want to tackle my life’s problems as they come and work towards a steadier and peaceful life. This wouldn’t seem like such a difficult challenge if it wasn’t so far from what I have now. I want to be consistent and grounded in my life, much like a mountain. Unphased by what happens around it, but still supportive for everything that relies on it.

When it comes to my personality I have to agree I am about as stubborn as there is. I also choose my battles. I am happy to be wrong, as long as I can understand how I am wrong. I also live off knowing the whys of something, rather than accepting it as the way it is. With this, I am both flexible and stubborn. When it comes to pain, injuries or illness, I tend to see if it is still there after 4 weeks. Often anxiety has created mysterious issues that tend to resolve themselves, but this has come back to bite me before. I can push through most things though, and find it relatively easy to do so… for a while.

I am not sure anyone would call me ‘practical’. Though I yearn for a simpler, minimalistic, life it is hardly what I create for myself. I have worked in the IT industry for years because I love the constant change and growth in it. The challenge of learning all the time and watching technology evolve is exciting! With that, my house is a mish-mash of technology depending on what I can afford. And if it wasn’t for my Virgo partner, I doubt I would ever slow down enough to finish any of my new techy ideas. Instead, our house is cram-packed with belongings, mementos, souvenirs and items from one of my (too) many hobbies. My knowledge is useful and has some convenient cross-industry benefits - which is about as close to practical as I get.

I also am both very conservative and very not - depending on your definition. I tend to lean to the more chaste side of things, but do love and embrace change. It is necessary, and a lot of it feels rather overdue. My beliefs tend to go towards solarpunk - and I would love to see technology embracing the old truths and knowledge we moved away from. I believe our lives forward should embrace nature and the old ways - but that we should be constantly looking on how we can innovate to best grow healthily.

Strength wise, I’d have to say I fit the Taurus image well. I am larger built but can lift and carry well over what you’d expect physically. Emotionally, it’s about the same. This came as a consequence for me, and I’d assume many others like me too. Just because I have the strength to keep my troubles and burdens inside doesn’t mean it was wise, healthy, or good to do so.

Financially, I couldn’t be much further from the ‘ideal Taurus’ if I tried. I have, even when I knew better, been prone to excessive spending without forethought into the consequences. I have made decisions that were not in the interest of saving and broke my plans. The words ‘limited edition’ hold far too much power over me - and that bothers me often. I am grateful for my ever-patient partner and our constant efforts to bring our finances back on track.

When it comes to self-sabotage and temper - I fit the stereotype like a glove. If that is my genetics, my upbringing, my mental health diagnoses, or being a Taurus I do not know. All I do know is they are things about myself I have spent a long time hating and working towards improving. I am proud to say I have made leaps and bounds regarding this - but definitely something I identify with.

Ultimately, I would say that I fit aspects of Taurus, hate parts of it, and idealize the aspects I lack.