She is a proud and lonely woman

Because of compassion, so understand.

Eileen Zhang is a proud and lonely woman.

Lonely and proud women are destined to go back and forth on the road of love, even to the end, in Zhang's works, there are few sweet love. In my memory, her work is the only "Love", "among thousands of people, meet the people you want to meet. In thousands of years, time boundlessly in the wilderness, no earlier step, no later step, met can only gently say: 'You are here? '" Such a beautiful sentence let me remember the first time. We can't explain the fate, always put this sentence to explain those can't break the chance.

It is obvious that love is the eternal theme of literature. But was Zhang Ailing explained very appropriate. "When she met him, she sank low, low, low into the dust, but her heart was glad. And a flower will grow there." Love has no dignity. Yes, Aileen such a proud woman, this is not the bar in the eyes of those vulgar men, but met Hu Lancheng, it is rare to have no smile in ordinary days, low to the dust. This is the language of love. "Winning poetry is more than thrush's joy" is what she pursues. At the beginning Li Qingzhao and Zhao Mingcheng "gambling book poured tea" is also a rare story. Who has the same taste these days? So the ancients knew romance best. Today, people are only squeezed by reality to make a living. There is no romantic factor. Perhaps romance only exists in the heads of the rich. Xiaozi sentiment only exists in the hearts of those who do not want to wake up from their dreams. In the play, Hu Lancheng sat beside Zhang, without saying a word, two people look at each other in the moment, they understand. Perhaps Zhang really fell in love with Hu, and gave him eight words: "Because of compassion, so understand." However, Hu felt that he did not deserve it, so he gave it to him. He just inverted it and said, "Because I understand, I am compassionate." Either way, I think they know each other. Zhang met a man who understood her, so cherish, proud head down, low to the dust, out of a flower. In order to such a "understand", Zhang paid how painful price, but she did not cherish, only for his "understand".

"Red Rose and White Rose" is Zhang's pessimism. She sees through these secular men. "Perhaps every man has had two such women, at least two. Married red rose, as time goes by, red became a touch of mosquito blood on the wall, white or "bright moonlight in front of the bed"; When you marry a white rose, the white one is a grain of rice sticky on your clothes, while the red one is a vermilion mole on your heart." Eileen Chang tells the true face of men. So she saw through, no longer the flower that was low to the dust, but shifted to a different Angle, and looked at those people with overlooking eyes. She saw through their false face, see through the so-called chase love vulgar men and women, "love" let me heartache, what is love? If there had been no war, would they have come together? In college, our modern literature teacher taught us to think in hypotheticals. That love affair is also deeply marked by The Times.

"Half life", a world situation. Shijun and Man Zhen could never go back. One sentence let us follow the book protagonist rustle tears. Eileen Chang tells us that when we are young, we always put love and life planning too perfect, thinking that we will not be separated when we meet, thinking that we will be together when we fall in love, thinking that fate is doomed. But we always simply forget the reality, forget those we have not seen and experienced the mutation of life, nothing can last forever, fate is also half, the first half is used to recall, the second half is used to sigh. This novel also has a name, "Eighteen spring" I think this title is good, eighteen years, is a quarter of a person's life, eighteen years of the young age completely put people from a dream young girl into a reality squeeze mercilessly destroyed middle-aged women, everything has changed, can not go back to that time. Even if meet, what else to say? "No, everything is just a silent confession, an old gesture.

Eileen Chang, this extremely demanding woman, in front of the extreme performance of love, and Hu Lancheng after a short marriage finally see through love. At the age of 38, she moved away from home to the United States and became a true "legend" woman, known only as "she came from the sea" and was a female writer. I am not a true fan of Zhang, I just feel a bit of affinity for the harshness of her works, for whatever reason. Harsh people must be harsh for a reason, I thought.

Because understand, so compassion.

I have not read Hu's This Life, and I have not read it yet, not because I have never met him, not because of my prejudice against Hu, but because I love Zhang too much. I can't imagine what it would be like for Eileen Chang, who is so low-key, so low as dust, to be featured in a book about the person she loves. Hateful? Deplorable? Or pathetic? I don't know. It is hard to imagine, the man who knew her, but in such a way to hurt her, and brought her more pain than abandoned the torture, how can you also use words to describe and her story, she will be one of the surprised?

"When you see people alone, Diao Gu Hong shadow".

Lonely and proud woman, text with you all the way, this is enough.