Gemirus

I grew up trying to fit into Pandora's Box of Gemini. But it never felt like that box was destined to fit me very well. The only thing that I could make sense out of being born Gemini was the dueling personalities. I thought somehow that must account for the fact that I wasn’t outgoing, I wasn’t talkative, I wasn’t a social butterfly. I was the other twin. The imperfect one that blended well with wallpaper!

Then I saw an astrologist for a birth chart reading. I was middle-aged and looking for clarity about which direction I should start running in after so many years of running in seemingly pointless circles. And I came away with a much better understanding of myself. But SO MUCH more confusion when trying to have a conversation about astrology with people. I unknowingly went to a Vedic Astrologer, who uses the Sidereal system of Astrology. The Sidereal system accounts for the Earth’s wobble pushing people’s sun signs back a full sign. He told me I was a Taurus. Bullheaded. Hmmm, I think I can relate to that. In fact, I really wanted to argue with him, about whether I was Gemini or Taurus, but we had a lot of ground to cover in that birth chart reading and we were just getting started.

He went on to tell me things that I had only hoped for or thought to myself in secret. And some other things I’ve never even heard of before. He said I have wildly aesthetic and creative abilities, I was an empath, I have something called a Hanuman circuit, I have a highly developed ability to lucid dream and could learn to have an OBE. He told me I had a “God Chart.” It was a lot to take in! But it was all right up my alley and in the wheelhouse of things that I wanted to know so much more about. I had moved to Los Angeles not too long before "in search of weirdos" to surround myself with and make life more interesting. I started to suspect I was going to be the weirdo; I did have a Leo Moon after all! (That explains SO much about me!) He knew that I had gotten a divorce. That growing up, my homelife was a difficult situation. It was heavy but so helpful to hear about my journey, my personality, and strengths and how I could use those puzzle pieces to create a picture for myself that was much more to my liking.

I was on a soul’s mission now to fulfill my purpose. I had always thought of myself as a seeker, but I had been distracted and gotten off course as I matured. But now I had a reason to explore the parts of me that I was always afraid to talk about. I could give myself permission to explore what it could mean to be an Artist. It was liberating for me!

He told me I am in a Jupiter period now. The start date of the Jupiter period corresponded with a marathon I had run 6 months earlier. Which had marked a real transition in my way of thinking. I had decided to challenge myself to do the marathon because I wanted to prove to myself that it was all mind over matter, with a little bit of training thrown in. I was so right! I came away from it understanding that I could do anything that I wanted to in life. I just had to be willing to give it my full, daily attention.

My takeaway from it all has a much deeper understanding of this personality and this life that I am living. With all the little hidden things that I’ve always thought about myself becoming so much clearer to me, I have a much greater appreciation for myself. I have had a long journey of self-discovery, but my birth chart reading was a big part of me learning self-worth, self-acceptance, and self-love.

My only issue is that I can’t read a normal Western Astrology Horoscope now. I don’t know how to translate my situation back to Western Astrology. Am I Gemini? A Taurus? Are we sure that we are in the Age of Aquarius? It would probably upset a lot of hippies to learn that we just entered back into the Age of Capricorn!