𝓦𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓐𝓷 𝓤𝓷𝓱𝓸𝓵𝔂 𝓜𝓪𝓷...

The man’s shaky breath could be heard behind the ancient cedar that was strained with age and the past confessions.. Hate, crime, sin.. All of which ached at my ears and tightened at my throat. The smell of coffee on the nervous, blubbery man could not escape the cage like box that had become my second home.

“F-Father I have sinned greatly-”

“As many others have, speak unto me and wish for God's forgiveness.”, I merely recited from a fragment of mind before the rosy cheeked teacher mumbled away about ‘seducing’ a student of his. Disgust filled my head and hoped that god didn’t shed a light on the man’s action unless it were to shame; I had to rid myself quickly of such a vile feeling before continuing.

“Do you understand that by giving your body, not only to a child, but committing adultery is a serious sin… Not only that but a crime.”

“Yes sir. But all I ask is forgiveness.”, the man’s sweat could be seen glaring off the hint of light peeking through the confession door. A sigh filtered past my lips and my eyes shut wishing it would not be so easy to send him off with a ‘god forgives you of your sins’. This wasn’t the worst thing he had heard through that barter… A far older man had once waltzed into my church after hours to beg for forgiveness; although it was not begging, far from it.. It was more of a demand than anything else. I could still recall that day vividly. To rush the pig-like man out of my church to ponder over the sickening memory I bowed my head after ushering a prayer to the heavens to forgive me from being so impatient.

“God forgives you for your sin but I want to warn you carefully and strongly advise you to bear honesty upon your shoulders and receive your consequences bravely. You mustn't fear such consequences because you are due them, if you do not appeal to receive them then God will be sure to give them unto you unwillingly.”

“Y-Yes sir.”

“You may leave. Allow the next person to step forth, thank you.”, I mumbled again as my heart felt lightened after such a warning. Of course, God may have been looking down upon me in my ill heart for such a warning but I felt as if I should have done what was morally right. I was left in silence for a moment as the thickly built man squeezed out of my stands to fetch yet another.

“I killed them all.. A smile was on my face and I do believe they deserved it. Killing a Jew should be right but… Jesus Christ has shown his side to me. I need forgiveness before I leave the face of this Earth and transcend in a different form.”

“God would be hesitant to let you in-”

“He will let me in. I am asking for forgiveness aren’t I?”

“God does not give forgiveness so willingly. You have taken souls from this Earth too quickly and for unjust-”

“You will give me forgiveness or so help me god-”

I snapped back into reality to hear the beacon speak so shallowly of himself and his needs. My eyes peeked through the partition in which oftentimes I did not allow my eyes to seek through. Curiosity is what took away human immortality.. Took for our sins. That is what my father advised me not to do… Curiosity will allow Lucifer to clutch onto you like prey and pull you down to the depths with him. Now, my father is probably in a boiling bath with satan now due to how he ran the church into the ground. Ill words still shared from past members of my name which quickly coaxed me to take a trip down to the courts to file a legal name change.. I took up my gentle and kind hearted mother’s name instead. My brown eyes met dazzling green eyes and a pairing body. A hard swallow and I leaned back.

“Please. Tell me why you are here..”

“My thoughts run wild Father-”

“Ah, ah.. Introduce yourself. Father, for I have sinned.. Then state your sin. You are seeking forgiveness are you?” I spoke carefully before the man took a deep breath.

“Father, for I have sinned…”, the man hesitated before I moved back into view, catching those eyes meeting mine.

“You can go ahead. There is no one else out there now, correct?” I spoke in a soothing tone before the reddened face nodded.

“Yes father. Can I be honest with you?”, the man spoke with hesitance in his voice.

“Of course.. Go ahead. Honesty is far more important than to lie and be aided in forgiveness by false words.”

“Well, like I said before.. My thoughts travel. I thought it was a phase but they just don’t go away and haven’t gone anyway since I was in college. They were the worst in college and they quickly led me to act upon them-”

“I apologize to interrupt and assume but have you come here to plead forgiveness for giving into homosexuality?”, I spoke so formally yet I myself knew the same. My father grew me on a tight leash and once he had passed on… I went on a frenzy. Something I wished to keep god’s eyes from seeing but as many believed, homosexuality wasn’t necessarily a sin just like sex wasn’t. As long as it was within good faith and not for advantage."

Silence quickly befell my confessing green eyed-youth. I redirected my eyes and spoke confidently, “Within this church, MY church.. You have not to worry over such a nonsensical rule or sin.. God forgives you but would you like to add anything else?”, I looked back over after leaning back but the stranger’s fingers slipped through the wall that divided us.

“Then… You have something to say father.”, the man spoke before chuckling and my heart drummed.

“I’m flattered but- I’m sorry. Excuse me-”, I almost pleaded myself before those green eyes peeked over.

“My thoughts are of you. But I’ve come to take something that belongs to me”, the man spoke and I felt my spirit leap from my chest into my loins.

“A-Again, excuse me.”, I spoke almost as quickly as a free weight hit the ground. Letting myself out to the empty stage of my church. My face reddened from both the heat of the booth and embarrassment that I gave into curiosity so quickly. Soon enough I felt a hand spin me around or at least what I thought was a hand had turned into a claw. It dug into my wrist and spilt red across the glorious carpets of my castle, of my beliefs and there… Those green eyes befell on me yet again. A toothy smile and I knew I had fallen for the unspeakable.

“L-Lucifer..”, a whisper passed my lips before my words were taken from me.