Thoughts In A Jar

What is Inspiration?

There is various definition like the process of being mentally stimulated to do something creative or the moment when a brilliant idea comes to your mind.

I want to consider the first one and ask myself an unpopular question: Is it needed? I mean, inspiration is a driving force for me, but why wait for it? Why don't you go looking for it, directly? It's much more fun. Who didn't love treasure hunting when we were adventurous children? And why should this change?

I thought that I couldn't write without it, even if I had the desire to do it. How many good stories have I lost because of my ignorance?!

But a few days ago, twenty-six to be precise, (a little more now that I'm revising this for the publication, a lost count...) I've grown tired of my thinking, and goddam! I'm happy I've done that! Now I'm looking forward to doing it every day and with the same passion as when I was a child and then a teenager when I wrote to run away from the difficulties of being a bullied child. My gosh, that saved me!

Now I'm not afraid anymore of showing who I am, of giving a piece of me in every story I write, even if some might not like it. And that's the game. I cannot be liked by the whole world and I'm madly fine with that, cause it's not going to stop me.

I write because I want to transport people to the beautiful places that my mind creates and don't be an egoist keeping them all for me.

I write because it gives strength, the one that I always think I will never get.

I write to escape a reality that I don't like because I'm not the one ruling.

I write because sometimes I don't like to take responsibility. After all, they scare me.

I write when I need to recover from taking them.

I write to celebrate my small victories.

I write even when inspiration comes by to stalk me because I didn't look for her, so we make peace and we create together, but it happens only a few times because she doesn't command me.

People have to stop relying on what was before, because things change, and even if the change it's not always positive it can bring progress and progress brings improvement.

I'm scared of big changes too, don't misunderstand me, everybody is and that's normal, but we would never be stopped by it. You're going to lose the best moments of your life if you do so.

I like romanticism, but when is too much a step away from it.

You don't need inspiration, you need action and you'll see that then the inspiration will come and you will ride an invincible steed and win the battle.

A battle that I lost all of the time that I opened a blank document and left it like that because I didn't know what to write, despite the need to put out stuff that my body was communicating to me with the electricity running through my arms and fingers.

Sometimes it's still hard to give the page the words it wants to be filled with, but I don't surrender that easily. I try to create an enticing environment, the right one for collaborative inspiration.

First of all, I write in the morning when nobody is home cause the house is silent and to surround me there are only the sounds of nature, the second I put on some music.

If I want to write something fantasy I'll put Medieval music, if I want to write sci-fi I'll go for Synthwave.

To break the chain of my not writing streak I've decided to redo an experiment that I tried many years ago and take a musical album, take the titles of its track and write a story with those, and here I am writing every single day ready to publish this short stories when I'll have completed the challenge of writing a short story every day for 31 days.

I don't look for inspiration anymore. She comes looking for me now.

So yes, I'm glad that I don't depend on her anymore, I'm not her servant anymore. I'm her master.