The Nightmare I had

People say horror movies and stories are just for those who are strong. Who are bold enough. who can go anywhere in the dark. That is one way true. you should be very daring, very courageous to deal with stuff that you are exeperiencing the first time. Parents have always taught kids to be brave , take part , take initiatives, but what fears who and when, it is all with individual.

I had a dream once. I had a night mare. I was living in rajajinagar, Bangalore. Home sweet home, beautiful 3 bhk, comfortable living. Me and my younger sister always fighting for rooms, for using bathrooms, selecting a closet etc.. I was always a scared child. I am a scarycrow when it comes to watching a horror movie, going out in the dark, getting down in water, trying new things. always afraid of a change, still i am. I used to sleep with mom in her room. nice and sweet. peaceful sleep until once she went to native, I couldnt sleep alone, so had to sleep with little sis in her room.

Like I said, hated the change. First few hours i tried sleeping switching on the light, sister was feeling disturbed so had to switch it off. The bed is next to window, which has a balcony with mesh. There are piegon dirt fallen on those nets, which makes it look like a pattern.For the first time i slept, i had to switch off lights, curtains closed, no noise as well. This was already making me get scared. In the midnight, around 3 am, people say this is a devil's time- I dont know if it is true . I got this weird heavy feeling on my body. I felt there was somone sitting on me, there was someone who had a control over me, my body. I had this weird feeling and I opened my eyes.

I was stunned. I cannot move my legs or hands. They are still. They are dead. I can only move my eye balls. I could not talk, scream. I tried opening my mouth, want to badly scream, but the action is there but no sound. I am feeling this heavy, controlled, mouth shut behaviour. Almost for a min or more this was it. But I felt like years. I felt scared, I felt emotional, I felt fearful, I was totally clueless. It was one night with mixtured emotions. I was normal by 3 15am. I got up, switched on the lights, I called mom, explained all this, spoke to her , cried, made her understand how scared i was. I managed to sleep the night. I could not move or turn towards a side, I just hugged my sister and just wanted the night to be over with.

I was clueless, horrified the next day. I never want to sleep there again. I slept in mom's room along with sister with lights on, a little music and lights on in the hall as well. I was very very scared. I woke her up for going to bathroom. I left the door open as well. I was confused and terrified what had happened. I wanted to make sure i do everything to get rid of that , to erase that from my mind, to not fear about it. Still trying , its been 6 years yet i get goosebumbs when i remember that night.

My mom got back, we spoke about it like 1000 times. I wanted to pray god, visit temple, wear an amulet or something , chant so that i dont get scared. we went to native, came back and its been 2 years and i had this doubt in mind, will it happen again, should i try sleeping there and check if it was one time thing or it is more. With this nature of me, fighting on what i fear of, I went that night when mom was sleeping in her room, i told sister i would be sleeping next to her. With all the rejections, I still went and slept with lights off, cutrains closed, no bed light. Same thing happened with an additional weirdness and horrifying overloaded.

3 am , I woke up, opened my eyes. Along like lastime , I cannot move my legs or hands. They are still. They are dead. I can only move my eye balls. I could not talk, scream. I tried opening my mouth, want to badly scream, but the action is there but no sound. I am feeling this heavy, controlled, mouth shut behaviour. I could see red eye balls, sitting on me, holding my neck , pressing it. The eyes were talking to me, was feeling like they want to hurt me. They want me to die. It was the scariest of my nights ever. This time it was more than minutes. The moment i was normal and i looked up the time , it was 3 30. It was horrible. I should not have questioned and went trying to prove something. something terrible happened. I never questioned if it was devil, if it was a ghost, if it was something that came onto me only, or it was just a night mare. but i questioned my daringness towards it and checked. I will never ever forget this ever in my life. I never want to go back nor i have from then have slept in that room.

My sister sleeps, she is fine. Everyone has their comfortable living, spaces. Stay there, dont question or go to do something that is beyond our understanding and proving. fear is part of life. Dont have to be worrying about being fearful. Everyone have, had one or the other fear so be and deal with it. Try to overcome, dont go to extreme levels to prove it.

-HU