Splattered Hearts Part 1

All I wanted to see is Edward just one last time, one last time. How could he leave me? That pain never left me, for month the pain become so unbearable could I have dreamt all of this all of this pain. I will never see him, Alice, or anyone that I ever carried about again.

As I stare down the cliff I jump when I see the ghost of Edward begging me not to jump.

"You wanted to make as if you didn't exist." I take off my jacket.

Feeling the adrenaline pump inside of me combing with the pain of never seeing him again. It begun to be to much.

When I took one look down, I jumped feeling the rush of excitement as my body rises up the water became to much.

The thoughts reeling in my head my heart beating fast as I start to swim to shore.

I speak a loud, "You were so obsessed with becoming a vampire jumping from dangerous moment to dangerous moment. For someone who never once loved you. If he loved you he wouldn't have left you to begin with."

A voice from behind me greeted me, "Bella who are you talking to? Have you gone completely loco?"

He wraps a blanket around me it was warm and I smiled fondly.

"No I haven't gone loco, and I just thinking I put myself in dangerous countless times for a boy who didn't love me. Edward was toxic, I was obsessed with becoming a vampire. I don't know why I did this to myself. I was feel so stupid Jacob." As emotions fill me I start to cry feeling as though a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I look across the way as if I saw Jacob in a new light. That feeling never once did I see in the shadows of what I thought the vampire could give me.

"Come on Bella, you know I hate it when you cry."

"I'm okay, Jake, I swear I am."

"No, Bella your not. I know it's going to take time I don't know why you fell with that thing he isn't even alive."

When he spoke about Edward like that still hurt because even though he was lifeless I thought there was a part of him still human.

Everyone always thought that Vampires are demons and shells of their former selves. I never saw or new him.

Was I under the delusion that I knew him? Was everything I thought I knew not as I seemed.

Shortly after I am back at my house with Jacob staying with me. Dad being out hunting the wolves with Henry Clearwater.

I am in a quiet house with Jake my best friend.

"Um Jake can you put my clothes in the dryer I'm going to get something big and comfy on."

I glance at him while handing him my clothes. I walk away upstairs to my bedroom.

I gasp in awareness that Jake just saw me in my panties and a bra he thought nothing of it.

He walked around as if this is his second home.

I couldn't believe it as I slip on my panties I look over to see Jake standing in the door way with his hands crossed and leaning against the door way.

"Bella what do you think your doing?"

That rush of excitement hits me again only this time it's something more.

I stand up slowly, I couldn't tell if these feelings are rebound or hidden but real the entire time.

I look into his eyes and I mean really look at him. I knew there was a reason why I couldn't' fight it anymore.

"Jake, I'm sorry for the all the pain I caused you. The fear I must have brought to you. Always worrying about my safety."

I step closer to him and watch him grab me pulling me so slow to him there is no space between us.

The soft breathing I do, the feeling of my heart double beating with the closeness of our bodies.

"Bella, I know you may not see it right now. But I love you, and I will never leave you. Not the way he did."

As our bodies just freeze as if in this moment everything I thought I knew is put into question. I knew Jake had feelings for me, and if I had been honest with him I had feelings for him too.

All the times we hung out together just listening and fixing up our motorcycles together. The bond we formed in the months we have been together is so strong it is unbreakable.

All I could do do is nod my head, I didn't know how to open my feelings to him. I had been so heart how I beard my heart, my body, my soul to the wrong person.

"You don't have to say it, Bells. I know I make you feel something. I know you feel it. I will wait forever if I have to just so you know."

Without thinking I let my heart in, and those feelings took affect.

I lean in failing to realise that I am naked in front of my best friend. And he is well aware of it his very warm hands don't caress my body just lingers embracing me with his hands on back.

Part 2 will be coming. I just wanted to make sure this is accepted on vocal because this store is very hot and heavy.