Passive Demon

God if your hearing me I think I'm far to lost for saving, I have done so many wrongs and never even tried to correct them, I blame myself I brought myself down this road and now I have to see it through. If only... if only I would have taken it more seriously I could have lived my high school years different, I could have been with her God I'm so angry, Angry that I'm weak, Angry that I chose the first option I came up with and I'm really angry that I left her by herself we've been together since we where kids, inseparable for so long and I have ruined that and now I must learn to live with that, as things are for me now I would rather die than to get her involved, but this is torture I am now forced to see the love of my life falling for another man and what's even worse is that our colleges merged so me along with all my demons are now lurking the halls of the university, God please continue to keep her safe and please keep those demons away from her i want to keep this lifestyle I live a secret from her for as long as i can in your name i pray... Amen.

"Master I have scouted out the classroom I could easily beat everybody in there singlehandedly its fine to go in", I let out a huge sigh "didn't I tell you to stop calling me master in school Ben you know what happens to people who don't follow my orders" Ben drops to his knees " Yes i understand I am just not used to calling you any other name what should i address you as", hmm now that you think about it its been a long time since anybody called me by my name.

"Jonah?" my heart drops to my feet, I know that voice all to well, I don't turn around "you got the wrong person I don't know who your talking about" I try to speed walk down the hallway but I was stopped by a man " Move" I said firmly " you shouldn't try to run away when a woman is talking to you, hey Kim who is this loser" I ball my fist so hard my nails are starting to pierce through my skin, that is her the one I lost a while back "I'm so very sorry" I said, I look at ben and give him a nod and in that same second that man who was once standing in front of me is now out cold on the floor still getting beaten "STOP" Kim said as she ran up to try to pull ben off of him "enough" I said calmly ben unhands the man I instruct ben to go to the bathroom so he can clean the blood off his hands, " at once sir" ben says, I look at Kim, seeing her look at me like she doesn't even know who I am anymore is making me uneasy " I'm so sorry Kim please stay away from me, I am not the same person I was, I had to change, if I didn't change I would have died, please be well and remember I am always praying for your safety" I continue to walk down the hall "WAIT JONAH WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU I CAN HELP PLEASE I MISS YOU", as much as I want to turn around and just run to her, explain everything that happened to her... I cant I'm stuck in this position of power because if I'm not in the place of power someone else will be and i simply don't trust anyone else but myself with that so i just ignore her and continue walking.