Out of the Darkness

It felt trapped. The heaviness piled up on top. The surrounding darkness seemed to be its only solace. Unable to withstand the confinement any longer led to an innate knowing that there had to be more.

With this knowing and the longing for transformation a slow metamorphosis began.

Intuitively it somehow knew that the only way out of this darkness it found itself in was to rise up. Not really understanding how this would happen it found faith and thus surrendered, trusting the process and inner knowing that was emerging from within.

With this surrender it started to feel some movement and the stirring to rise up through the darkness. Inch by inch it pushed past the feeling of fear and anxiety of the unknown ahead.

Days went by, it felt like forever. Some doubt set in. The space still felt the same. Musky, dark and confined, but it forged on ahead determined not to give in.

After a few more days it glimpsed a sliver of light! With hope renewed it kept pushing through, up and up towards the light. With the light now seeping in the courage grew for that one final push that broke through the darkness. Feeling exhausted but somehow renewed, it now found itself in a totally new space. It needed to rest for a while and shake of the fatigue before examining where it now found itself.

This space was unfamiliar. Everything looked different, nothing seemed or felt like before. As it looked around newfound sensations flooded in. The light was brighter. It loved the warmth it provided. Still feeling quite weak and unsteady it realised that the warmth this light gave out was providing it with strength. Due to this realisation, it spent quite a bit of time soaking in the warmth and light.

These new sensations were at times overwhelming and surprising. It was left feeling vulnerable and exposed to the new elements yet somehow knowing that this too was part of the process and what was needed. It still somehow knew that the journey was not complete.

Once again days went by and judgment set in. Is this it? What am I supposed to do now? Why am I here? As it pondered these questions a small voice within whispered. Just be, trust the process like you did before. Bask in the light, feel the elements, grow stronger and stronger, be with it all. It still felt quite tight in places. Frustration and anxiety set in due to thoughts that nothing was happening. It couldn’t really see itself from the outside as the alchemy and transformation was firstly happening from within.

Then one day just like that it felt different yet again. Something had changed. Things appeared even brighter, livelier. The outlook from higher up filled it with amazement. There was a flurry of activity. It seemed to be receiving all this attention, there was a buzz in the air. What was going on! It didn’t quite understand. After all it wasn’t doing anything different just trusting the process, basking in the light, feeling and being.

It still couldn’t really see itself.

Ah, but that did not matter, the little seed that was planted in the darkness of the soil trusted, had faith in the process of life. It trusted its innate and natural intuition to rise above the darkness to be with what is. It pushed past its doubt, judgment and fear to become what it was.

As it evolved and bloomed into a beautiful Marigold flower it’s natural radiance and beauty unique to itself attracted everything it needed. Even though it couldn’t see itself, others that saw it were attracted to its presence. The sturdy stalk with its emerald heart shaped leaves held the multiple layers of overlapping velvety petals. They got smaller and more condensed towards the centre with hues of yellow, orange and red, the flower bloom was mesmerizing. This innocent being did not realise that it symbolized positive emotions and energy. It’s colours of yellow, orange and red hues evoked the feelings of warmth like the sun, happiness, joy, optimism and luck. Even though the journey may not have seemed that way to the Marigold, it was always in the right place at the right time precisely because it had become what it always was destined to be.