LAST THING

11/20/15

“There’s always a door to be discovered by anyone and everyone”…Those were the very last words my grandmother told me before her unexpected death.

My grandmother’s death was sudden like the sound of a “shooting” gun or lightning and thunder. Even after she passed I felt like she was still beside me, I feel. Is as if she wanted to tell me something important. I thought that maybe if I wondered inside her room I would find a letter or something physical that I could have of hers.

Instead, I stumbled into a box that was in the middle of the room. I was too distracted looking around the four walls in her room that I didn’t noticed.

At first I was confused and at the same time awed by it. The box was beautiful, it was made of nice wood, painted in black and silver and there was a butterfly carved on it. I thought it was funny, just because my grandmother use to called me butterfly since I was a child.

I opened it. There was an envelope and a stone with beautiful colors on it. I opened the envelope while holding my breath and being gentle at the same time.

“Dear mary, I’m sorry… you must be confused. If you found this letter is most likely because I’m gone. My dear mary I regret nothing because I will do anything to protect you no matter what. I don’t have much time to write this my dear but I must help you one last time, before I go. The stone in the box will protect you and so will I. I know you are soon going up to Michigan to start college, I remember when you were just a little girl. I know you won’t remember, but we use to live in a cabin in the woods of Michigan with your dad and your mom. I am sorry my child but everything I did was to protect you I promise. Listen, you must go back-”

I stopped with tears in my eyes, tears pouring out like a river with no control.

All that went through my head was “mom” over and over again. I couldn’t think straight. What was she trying to say? What was she protecting me from? And who? And mom? Mom, mom died when I was born. That’s what my father and my grandmother told me. So what the hell was going on?

I continued reading “ Listen, you must go back to the cabin. Don’t worry once you get to Michigan you’ll know how to find it. You must be very careful with your surroundings and the people you trust during this journey. You must finish what I couldn’t, I know you can do it. You are strong. When you safely get to the cabin look for the hidden door. You will see it, I have blessed you with the eyes. You’ll understand once you open it! And dear don’t trust her. Your mother. She’s no longer herself . I will always protect you no matter what. Love, grandma”

“What the hell”, were the words I screamed. I felt like I was suffocating. I didn’t move and became paralyzed and numb. My head attacking each question with other questions. I must have stayed like that for a few minutes. I heard the door downstairs opening and closing then my name. It was dad.

I didn’t know what to think or do so I reacted. I took the envelope, crumbling it up in my pocket along with the stone. And hid the box just in time. When the door opens there he was. We locked eyes and I asked. Is there something you need to tell me? Anything about mom, about grandma? He looks at me with confusion and worry, as if I were a child. So I asked again, you remember that cabin up in Michigan? And he finally speaks and asks me if I were ok.

“What are you going on about? What cabin? And we’ve never been to Michigan before.” He wasn’t lying. See, when my father lies he laughs and his mouth twitches. But he looked casual and overly confused so I know he wasn’t lying. I tried my best to give him a smile. And said never mind.

“Well, ok. I brought you some food, it’s downstairs! Come eat with me.” I nod and went down with him.

He started talking about something that happened during his visit in pablo’s pizzeria. But I zoned out and thought to my self. He doesn’t know? Doesn’t remember? Where’s that cabin? I need to to know. “You will know” my grandmothers words come again , how will I? Nevertheless, I’m going to that cabin.

12/4/15

During the couple of weeks or so, I spended time with my father, since I was leaving and he would stay here alone. Until, the day came to go of to college and say goodbye. He dropped me of at the airport and kissed me in the forehead.

I went in and after a couple of hours we got escorted in the plane. The flight was approximately 2 hours and 30 minutes. After what seemed to be an hour and a half, my head started to throb. I didn’t understand why but I took Advil, don’t know how many but it wouldn’t go away. At this point I became desperate, I asked for help. One of the flight attendants came towards me asking what was wrong. I couldn’t even speak, the pain became more unbearable.

After that I don’t know what happened. I woke up at a hospital room. Something was different but what? I kept getting this glimpses of what seemed to be me, when I was little. My grandmother was there too, my dad but younger and a women. Who was that women? MoM? Is that my mom? Her hair was as black as mine and her eyes… my mom?

A nurse walks in and the glimpse of mom disappears. The nurse seemed overly excited, she was tall and skinny. Her skin was so beautiful with red spots on her cheeks and she was as white as snow. She says “ how are you feeling?” And continues “ you had a hell of a strong migraine by the looks of it , we did some tests but nothing…strange huh? Well you are free to go but I will prescribe you some strong meds for when this happens again” she says with a smile.

I get my stuff and the meds. Before I walked away I asked where exactly I was and turns out I was pretty close to my dorm. I said thank you and walked away with my stuff then I reached for my phone to call for a cab.

When the cab finally notified me conforming that they were here, I walked out. He helped me put my luggage in the trunk, I gave gave him the address and we got in the car.

My mom, she popped in my head again, she was carrying me. She was so beautiful…is? And then something else appears. The cabin? It’s near? We’re near the cabin? But how am I sure? I took a deep breath and guided him towards another direction. It was familiar but I was still lost.

Another memory, He couldn’t go through?I screamed loudly STOP. He stops, and I look around. Nothing? What the hell… I still had a feeling so far down my gut. I need to walk there? I got out the car and took my stuff out the trunk. He asked why here and I payed him and said no worries thanks. And off he went.

Here I was. Where? I don’t know. But I walked, I just started walking for what seemed 15 minutes. Then there it was, The cabin.