Just a Dream

Lily Mae life was prefect she couldn’t help smiling at herself in the mirror. Things were so bad in her past she shudders at the thought of them. Then she tucked the bad memories in the back of her mind she had to get ready for her day. The first thing was she had to focus on the good things in her life it always calmed her. In anger management they said if you focused on the good, when the bad happens you don’t do anything reckless because you have good things in your life that you don’t want to lose. I genuinely believe that I wouldn’t want to lose my scholarship to my school that I love and have built a life here. I and my two best friends have made an entertainment production group, where we record on issues and events. Then there was my perfect boyfriend. He was a senior, even though I was just a sophomore, I could tell it was true love. He was gorgeous, with his gorgeous brown eyes and his gorgeous smile. He had all the right muscles and knew all the right things to say. We weren’t the typical couple in love they didn’t have to show it in public with kisses and sweet nothings to make everyone jealous. We had witty banter conversations the debated about movies sports politics, everything, and anything. We didn’t spend every waking moment together because I had my entertainment production group, and he had all the things he did which was a lot. However, we always made time for each other we always ate breakfast and dinner together and he’d come over to do homework and watch movies after his football practices. I would have to stop daydreaming about him if I was going to meet him for breakfast. I got dressed and started my walk to the school. My babe hated that I walked he always wanted to give me a ride, but I needed the exercise. When I got to dinner hall and saw him feelings from when I first met him came back. All the butterflies and lust and little girl feeling I was nineteen and he made me feel like I was nine. I walked up to him trying to calm myself; I still could not believe he was mine. I mean I am pretty. I have a fabulous figure a pretty face and a gorgeous smile, but I just did not think I deserve such perfection. He was staring at me when I finally got next to him.

“What!!!” I said defensively. he smiles that I always loved, and he shook his head.

“You.” He said like that should answer everything. I raised an eyebrow.

“What about me?” I said and a serious tone, but he knew I was just joking. He grabbed by the waist and held me tight kissed me on the cheek.

“How did I get you?” I pulled back a little so I can see his face.

“I’m not sure, luck or maybe you are a result of severe brain damage I’m suffering from.” He pulled me back

“Well then I hope you never get better it” he kissed me not a peck but a sweet kiss the somehow conveyed the feeling he was feeling for me, and I knew what we had was real.

“That’s real sweet” I said sarcasm dripping heavily

“You like it though” we got our food and sat down we started talking about a teacher I hate; she was my first class of the day.

“Tonight, we should have dinner together” he said all seriously

“Oppose to all the other nights when we have dinner with other people” I laughed

“No, I mean at my place a special dinner” he sounded shy it was weird

“What is so special about it” I said teasingly trying to make him feel more comfortable.

“It’s a surprise” I hate surprises they are so stupid “and don’t give me that face you will like this surprise.” I looked over to line Mary and Anna had just got in line. We had to discuss our plans for tonight it was going to a local group performing our friend Malcolm was in it we heard him before he was really good. I turned back to my babe

“Okay it’s got to be an early dinner we have plans tonight” he smiled a big goofy smile like he was happy I said yes like he was any danger of me saying anything else. Mary and Anna came and sat at the table with Anna’s boy toy Chris. She wasn’t serious about him yet. Mary’s boyfriend or as I like to call him pre fiancé was going to school in our home city. Everyone exchange pleasantries, I loved our group they were so polite and inviting.

“So, I talk to Malcolm about us interviewing for our show and he was really excited. He got us a table in V.I.P. and backstage passes for the girls. We get free drinks all night. I was thinking you guys can go there early to get backstage footage of them getting ready and semi-interviews of the rest of the band and we can do our full interview with Malcolm after classes today. And Mary we have six tickets if you want to bring anybody. We all have to be there by nine they perform at ten. What you guys think?” they looked at me in laughed.

“You should try taking breathes in between sentences” Mary said

“Shut up” I said playfully

“But the plan sounds good I’m glad he got us backstage passes hold up is there a backstage at the coliseum,” said Anna

“Good question” I thought aloud. I looked at my phone I was late for class I got up and left quickly i had classes back-to-back, but I got texts from my babe, I did not answer.

At lunch we all sat at table me Anna and Mary.

“So, what was with you this morning” Anna said.

“What you mean”

“Don’t insult us lily,” said Mary.

“So, I think he is going to break up with me”

“Why” they both said

“He wants to have dinner tonight at his house”

“So” they both said

“And he has a surprise”

“And?” they both said

“Could you guys stop doing that?”

“Well, we are just trying to see why you would say that” said Mary

“Cuz he obviously adores you” Anna said

“And put up with all your shit” Mary said

“Why would he just suddenly break up with you” Anna said

“At his house” Mary said

“Over dinner” Anna said

“A romantic dinner,” said Mary

“You guys think he has another girl, and he is inviting me over to kill me”

“Stop being so dramatic lily” Mary said

“And ridiculous” Anna said

“Okay I’m just nervous I hate”

“Surprises” they interrupted we all laughed. We were so corny sometimes we laughed so hard at something that was barely funny. To anyone but us it wouldn’t have been funny

My babe arrived at my house around six. I was ready at six thirty my nerves were really everywhere. I just wanted this break up to hurry up and be over so I can go and see Malcolm. I walked to his house it smelled like popcorn. I went to sit in front of the TV. On the table was Doritos, turkey sandwiches, popcorn, and green Hawaiian punch. He was watching me look over everything, waiting for me to say something. I looked at him oddly motioned for him to come sit next to me. He came slowly still watching me for a reaction. I took a deep breath. Looked at the food.

“You made all my favorites…” I took a bite out of the sandwich “I love it” I said with my mouth full I could be so embarrassing sometimes. He laughed

“I love you” he said. I dropped my sandwich and looked at him he was serious. Was this his surprise?

“Is this your surprise?”

“Well yeah” I thought about what he said “do you like it”

“Well, umm no” he looked like he was trying to hide it his sadness “I love it…and you” he brightens up immediately.

“You always have to play about everything do you take anything seriously” he said as he through some popcorn at me

“Hmmm you don’t believe me”

“How can I you play so much” he said even though it was obvious he did.

“Idk well if u don’t believe then maybe I should just go” I stood up he threw some more popcorn at me “throw one kernel at me” he through one more and looked at me like ‘what are you going to do about it’ I gave him a look like ‘watch this’ I picked up the bowl of popcorn and dumped it on his head. That started a food fight. My life is made up of corny moments.

We got the coliseum around 915. I went up to our table first I saw Charlie and Chris. I figured Mary and Anna was already getting footage. I said my hellos. Charlie was Greek member of omega psi phi (which is good because that’s my favorite Greek), Chris a member of the band (which is a good thing at our school band was bad as in good) and my babe is a football player (which is good even though our team is bad) so who said we weren’t cool. After the show we were all out in the parking lot talking my babe was somewhere with his football friends and Chris was with his drum line friends and Charlie was out stepping with his brothers making a scene. We had gotten a lot of footage just getting some finishing shots with Malcolm. Chris had come to steal away Anna. Next Mary left with Charlie after yelling she will see me at home. Malcolm and I stood there talking I looked up and noticed the parking lot was empty. Me and Malcolm went to Denny’s had some breakfast and talked. He dropped me off at my house and left.

The next morning, I got to school everything was hectic. I walked in to white hall and I saw my babe and I walked up to him “what’s going on” he pulled me out in front “Malcolm is dead” omg I couldn’t breathe “and lily I don’t think me and you are going to work out” everything stop at once this could not be happening “I …why….hold up…what?” he started to explain I walked away I walked into Curtis hall and sat on the couch looking at the news saying I was the lead suspect that I killed Malcolm. Wtf is going on. Then the police stormed. I got up as they surrounded me, I walked out in handcuffs. They took me down. They questioned and badgered and drilled me. I answered numbly. When they were done, they decided I wasn’t the killer I had a concrete alibi; the fact me Mary and Anna where up all night editing our video. When I got home, I sat on my bed trying to fill something I felt nothing.

Malcolm funeral was the saddest, but I was to nub to feel. I watched his mom and little sister cry. It was gang violence that killed him. He was walking into his house and was shot. The police had been tipped it was me because they saw me leave the club with him and it was “known that I had a crush on him, and he turned me down” so I shot him. I was standing in the back of the church ready to walk up and say my goodbye. Then a hand grabbed me. I turned around to see my babe my love the one when I needed him most disappeared from my life.

“Lily I’m sorry”

“You thought I killed him…”

“I’m sorry”

“Is that all you have to say?”

He shook his head “I’m sorry”

“Well that just not good enough.” I took off my silver heart locket he gave me after our first fight. I always wanted it and I was so happy to get from him some I would always be with. That thought was so wrong. I put the charm in his hand along with the promise he made to stand by me no matter what that nothing would come between. I and my mom had got into a fight and Mary went home for the week and Anna was on some trip to Orlando. I called him he told me was too busy. I hung up on him. I went to walk it out on the beach and saw him with some girl taking pictures. He saw I and I left the next day i went to the school and sat at a table and Malcolm came. I told him everything I felt better afterwards, and I got up and thanked him and gave him a hug and that’s when I saw him. He walked up to me started yelling and about to fight Malcolm I started yelling and we both finally calmed down I was crying. I have always been so emotional. We all left going our separate ways. Everything had come out; that the girl was his cousin she was helping her with a project and me and Malcolm was a misunderstanding we gave each other space to think. I went home by the time I got there I wanted to call him and just forget everything I didn’t like being apart from him or arguing with him. The next day he knocks my door. I let him in, and he explained that he never wanted to be away from me he was sorry seeing me with another guy made him realize he didn’t want to be with anyone but me. then he gave me the locket.

I walked down the aisle. I looked down and saw Malcolm face he looked like the same Malcolm from the last time I saw. I cried I let it all out. Once I started, I could not stop. I stood next to Malcolm, and I just cried.