Ghosts of Summer Rain

The Memory That Wouldn’t Leave

Some moments stay with you long after you think you’ve moved on.

Not because they haunt you in a frightening way, but because they whisper—softly, constantly—like rain hitting a window on a quiet afternoon.

For me, those whispers came every time the sky darkened in July.

I used to think summer rain was just weather: warm drops, muddy sidewalks, the smell of wet earth rising like a secret only nature knew.

But that changed the summer everything in my life cracked open… and somehow began healing at the same time.

That was the summer I first learned what it meant to lose someone—

and what it meant to keep them with me in a different way.

Those are the ghosts of summer rain I carry now.

Where the Rain Became a Reminder

I was sixteen the day the rainstorm came out of nowhere.

One minute the sky was bright enough to make the world look brand new.

The next minute clouds rolled in like they had something to say, and I barely had time to run onto my grandmother’s porch before the sky opened and poured its heart out.

My grandmother, who everyone called Nana, stepped out holding two mugs of hot tea—because she believed tea could solve anything, even a sudden storm.

“You’re not afraid of a little rain, are you?” she teased, setting one mug in my hands.

I wasn’t.

But I was afraid of something else that summer.

Afraid of growing up.

Afraid of disappointing people.

Afraid of the quiet arguments my parents thought I couldn’t hear.

Afraid of losing the version of myself I used to know.

Nana didn’t ask questions. She never pushed. She just stood beside me, watching the rain like it was performing only for us.

And then she said something I didn’t understand at the time—but I understand it perfectly now:

“Listen to it. Rain tells the truth when people are too tired to.”

I didn’t know what that meant then.

I wish I had asked.

Because a few weeks later, Nana got sick—fast, sudden, without enough time for my heart to catch up.

By the time August came, she was gone.

And every storm after that felt like a voice I could only hear if I stood very still.

The Summer After Everything Changed

The next summer was the hardest.

I didn’t want to go back to Nana’s porch.

I didn’t want to hear the rain, because the rain remembered what I was trying to forget.

But grief has a strange way of finding you even when you hide from it.

That July, another storm rolled in—just like that day the year before.

The same heavy sky.

The same damp wind.

Even the same smell, like the world was rinsing itself off.

I told myself I wouldn’t go to her porch.

But my feet walked there anyway.

When I stepped onto those wooden boards, the house felt emptier than it ever had.

She wasn’t there with tea.

She wasn’t humming old songs.

She wasn’t leaning against the railing, pretending not to watch me grow up too fast.

I stood alone, staring at the rain falling in sheets.

And then something small happened—something most people would’ve ignored.

A single drop of water fell from the roof and landed on my wrist.

Warm.

Soft.

Exactly the way her hand felt when she used to squeeze mine.

I don’t know why, but that one drop broke me open.

Not in a painful way.

In a freeing way.

I cried into the rain, letting it mix with everything I had held inside for a year.

Every fear.

Every moment I didn’t let myself feel.

Every piece of grief I tucked away because I didn’t want to fall apart in front of anyone.

For the first time, I understood her words:

Rain tells the truth when people are too tired to.

I had been tired for too long.

Ghosts That Heal Instead of Haunt

People think “ghosts” mean something frightening.

But some ghosts aren’t scary at all.

Some are gentle.

Kind.

Memories wrapped in warmth.

Every summer rain after that carried her in it.

Not literally—just in the way certain moments carry the people we miss.

When life felt too heavy, I’d sit on that same porch.

Sometimes I talked out loud.

Sometimes I didn’t say anything at all.

But I felt her there.

Not as an ache—but as a reminder.

A reminder to slow down.

A reminder to breathe.

A reminder to listen to the things I tried to outrun.

The truth is, life had become a lot like that rainstorm—messy, unpredictable, crashing down without warning.

But it also washed me clean in ways I didn’t expect.

I realized grief doesn’t disappear.

It changes shape.

It becomes something you carry not because you must, but because you want to keep the love that brought it.

Nana wasn’t gone in the ways that mattered.

Not while summer rain still fell.

What the Rain Finally Taught Me

I used to be afraid that remembering her would keep me stuck in the past.

But I learned the opposite.

Remembering her moved me forward.

Her laughter.

Her wisdom.

The way she saw beauty in storms instead of running from them.

Those memories became my guide—little lanterns I carried through darker years.

Now, when the season shifts and the sky begins to rumble, I go outside and stand in the rain.

I close my eyes.

I breathe.

I let the water fall exactly where it wants to.

And I listen.

Because somewhere in that soft, steady rhythm, I hear her.

Not as a ghost that haunts me—

but as a ghost that helps me grow.

A ghost that reminds me that storms pass.

And when they do, the world is always a little cleaner, a little clearer, a little more alive.

Just like me.

Conclusion: The Gift of Summer Rain

If you’ve ever lost someone you loved, you probably have your own version of a “summer rain”—

a sound, a place, a smell, a small moment that brings them back to you for a heartbeat.

Hold onto it.

Not because the past should control you,

but because love deserves to stay alive in the little things.

The ghosts of my summer rain don’t scare me anymore.

They guide me.

They comfort me.

They remind me that love doesn’t disappear—it just learns to fall in new ways.

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Regards: Fazal Hadi