First Love Becomes Wounded, Tangled and Unforgettable

First Love Becomes Wounded, Tangled and Unforgettable

This is a true story.

The heart burns like fire / just to light you on the road. The light that crosses the poles / can't resist the melancholy of the water years. The road is long / can not break away from the love network of thoughts. The first wind rose / is already full of laurel fragrance.

The actual love can make the broken-winged angel reborn, and the mind and insight can make the angel fly higher.

It is the season when love is in its infancy and youth is blooming.

Her name is Jusang, is a short, chubby and silent girl.

She studied in the same class with him, and, he could see from her shy fawn-like eyes that she liked him. However, pretending to be unknown, and not to say anything.

Yes, she does like him very, very much, 1.80 size, a clean face, charming smile plus a funny laugh, are enough to make her fall in love, more importantly, he has a magical mathematical talent, sometimes the math teacher difficult to answer the problem, he can actually think clearly and well organized to say the simple solution, which in her opinion is both mysterious and full of endless attraction.

She, on the other hand, is a girl with all kinds of fantasies in her head, with a good heart but extremely low self-esteem.

She is less than 5'6", but she is 6'1" to others.

She weighs more than 55 kilograms, but tells others that she has at most 50 kilograms.

This kind of lies are told so much that even she herself began to believe that she is a fair lady, waiting for a gentleman to martyr.

However, no. At least, he did not express any interesting message to himself.

It was already autumn. The first thing you need to do is to get a copy of the language book and go out on the playground to read it. The actual fact is that she likes to write, and she wrote a lot of what she didn't dare to say in reality, what she didn't dare to love, what she didn't dare to do in that diary with a lock, including of course her feelings for him.

As she was reciting it aloud, a soccer hit her temple and she struggled to keep her balance, but still failed to stand and fell to the ground in the ugliest of positions on all fours, her consciousness somewhat blurred.

In a trance, she saw as if he had picked himself up and carried him into the school nurse's room, and spoke in an urgent tone to the school nurse about something. Then later, she felt her eyelids were so heavy and gradually fell asleep.

The moment she woke up, she slowly opened her eyes and saw that it was him sitting in front of her bed and couldn't believe it! Blinking again, yes, it was him! The unexpected surprise instantly spread throughout her body, tingling and drunken. Then, she felt ashamed of herself for feeling this way, her face burned and her ears began to follow.

He saw her awake and the expression on his face first eluded him, then his face turned red again.

He said with some confusion: Are you feeling a little bit of fever? I'll go get the school nurse to take your temperature, right?

She hurriedly waved her hands: No, no, I just feel a little uncomfortable for a while, it's not a problem, don't worry about it!

He looked at her look and felt funny, the corners of his mouth unconsciously showed a smile that he did not know whether it was mockery or other meanings.

In her opinion, this smile is a sign that he is friendly to himself: Oh my God! He does not like me too, right? It is better not to like, he is so good, how can I deserve it?

At this moment, she remembered the famous line of Eileen Chang: I became very low and low when I met you, all the way down to the dust, but my heart is joyful. And a flower blossomed there. She thought she was probably the flower that was opening.

I'm really sorry for what happened yesterday, I didn't mean it, I blame my bad skills, I got you into trouble.

After a pause, he took out a food bag and said: this is the breakfast I went to the breakfast store to buy breakfast, do you like to eat?

Milk and burrito -

She was busy nodding: like! Of course I like it! This is what I eat every morning.

In fact, she did not like milk very much, and she hated burritos even more, the strong smell of onion would make her completely sick to her stomach.

However, she still happily ate this breakfast that seemed absolutely unpalatable before, she thought it was the only consideration he had for herself, and if she didn't accept it, did she have to abandon it? She would never allow herself to do anything to hate him.

Seeing that she was eating with relish, he got up and said goodbye: there is still a very important math class today, I'll go to class first, you get some rest, I'll give you the lecture notes when I'm done.

She once again felt full of happiness, what an intoxicating morning it was!

He left, and she was still lying on the humble bed in the school nurse's room, dreaming meandering dreams.

Because of her injury, they slowly came into contact with each other more. He helped her with math, she helped him with language, and slowly, slowly, she began to try to get into his line of sight.

The restlessness of adolescence is the most concealed from the eyes of onlookers. The class is full of rumors, all saying that he and she are good together, and are studying complementary type of couple, really enviable.

She liked the misunderstanding that everyone had, and such misunderstanding filled her heart with joy.

The first thing you need to do is to get a good idea of what you are getting into. The old man who read her essay was very complimentary and could not be helped.

At this point, he remembered his beautiful first girlfriend: it was a beautiful! Height of one meter seven, weighing just over 40 kg, model figure plus a slightly mature face, too perfect! But in the end, it was not possible to continue this beautiful past because of the long-distance schooling.

The first thing you need to do is to get a good idea of what you're looking for.

Ugh. He lost a sigh of relief. The sensitive her caught, gently asked a: What's wrong? Something on your mind?

He gave her a bitter smile: nothing, I just have something on my mind can not say out to annoy you ah! She was delighted again: he is so considerate, even the troubles are carried by themselves, not to worry about themselves, really is a good boy inside and out ah!

She thought about it and suddenly, she blurted out the words she had been thinking about a million times: Can I like you?

He was shocked to hear that: What? She was shocked by her own recklessness, and hurriedly pursed her lips, not saying a word.

He stopped looking at her and continued to recite the boring ancient text under his breath, but inside he was tumbling: to be a couple with her? Do you want to laugh? It's too incompatible to go together! No, no!

Her heart is also torn to blame herself: how can be so shameless to say this to a boy? If he finds out that he likes him, won't he be ashamed of himself? When did she become this way? Too unreserved!

Things are not as smooth as she thought they would be, just like in the movie, that joint exam brought her an unpredictable change, making her life a complete turn.

That time, he did very well in the exam, and the language especially improved fast, almost surpassing the core. As a result, he confidently went to confess his love to Core, only to have Core reject him.

The core also said what he didn't want to hear: aren't you with Saner? Why do you still come to me? If you are so double-minded, Sang'er will be sad, you know? After that, he said, "Don't bother me anymore, treat Sang'er well.

He was angry, he was desperate, and then he thought: It's all because of her! It's all because of her! I'm going to go to her and make it clear that we are not boyfriend and girlfriend at all!

Angrily, furiously, he walked over to her desk and, without a word, pulled her up and walked towards the playground. She was dumbfounded by his sudden move, and her mind went round and round in many circles, but it never occurred to her what was wrong with him.

He almost growled and said to her: Don't you ever come and give me any more questions, I don't need you anymore, our deal is over. Do you think you can enlist me with that crap language level? No way! First look at your looks: bucket body type, big plate face, hair still so a vertical, like a boy, who will like you? Don't dream! I'd only like a girl like my first girlfriend, pretty and tall, or a school girl with talent and beauty like Core! You don't take advantage of any of them, and you still want to be with me? Don't dream! From now on, don't bother me anymore, I hate you!

He finished these words in one breath, no pause, no hesitation, only anger and vehemence.

She was dumbfounded and stunned, and the two "don't dream" in a row hit her heart like a cannonball, hurting to the point of numbness.

He finished his words and walked away with big strides as if he had dumped his baggage. She was left alone, standing in the relentless winter wind, with tears streaming down her face, not knowing whether to be sad or relieved.

She just stood, and I don't know how long she stood, and she didn't go to evening study. She did not dare to indulge herself to sit down, she was afraid that after sitting down she would not have the strength to get up. The tears on her face were dried up by the wind at some point, and there were ice cubes in some places. Her head is blank, do not know how to face all this later, to die? She even thought so.

Later, she didn't know how she got home, or how she fell asleep, or how long she cried in her dreams, and a lot more.

She was in no mood to deal with the college entrance exams, she just wanted to sleep, because she could think about nothing and do nothing, just quiet sadness.

She took a break from school and did not take the college entrance exam.

He got in, an ordinary college in the province, also went to read.

The information about him was told to her by some people who cared about her. She always smiled at these people and said thank you.

But these messages, for her, had no real meaning.

After her sorrow, she went back to her senior year of high school: she woke up at five o'clock every day and started to memorize ancient Chinese and English, never taking a break at noon, and lying down under the lamp almost every time at night to sleep. Her parents advised her not to fight so hard, just get into any college, but she just smiled and continued to study hard.

When the results were released, her name was ranked third: Peking University. Many people were surprised by this ending, and more than that, they were surprised. For the teachers at the school did not even notice her as an unknown student, she was too quiet and silent.

Only she knew, from the moment he ranted that piece to her.

She wanted to show him that she was not a mere clown character to be used, that she was talented, that she was no longer the bucket girl in his eyes, that she had also become a pavilion: six-foot-three and 45 kilos, that had been pressed by the preparation for the entrance exams. But all in all, she still met the standard in his eyes.

However, all this does not matter, he does not know, and she does not want him to know.

The way she went to college, got a scholarship, fell in love, she took the road to college is no different from others.

After graduation, married with college sweetheart, buy a house, buy a car, run a well-off life, raise a husband and children, she lived a quiet happy life.

In the course of a quiet life, she still thinks of him late at night when she can't sleep, remembering how much she used to like him, when she thinks it is still sweet mixed with bitterness, she will be pounding to admonish herself: should not have these miss.

However, the memory is still a persistent silk vine, winding in her heart, refusing to leave.

Once by chance, she went back to her hometown to visit her parents and met him.

He was wearing a worn jacket and colorless jeans on a hot day, his face was haggard, his beard unshaven, and his hair was disheveled as if he hadn't washed it in years, squatting disheveledly at the entrance of a super department store, incompatible with the street scene. If it wasn't for a high school classmate who stabbed her and told her the man was him, she would never have recognized him.

At this time, she is already a well-known young writer, the frequent publication of articles, countless literary lecture tours, endless field sketching visits, and endless literary pen meetings.

At this moment, wearing a long purple dress, she has become mature, noble, more outstanding, no one will recognize her as the short, fat and silent girl.

She slowly walked towards him, as she did back then, carefully and gently asked: Are you Jie? Do you still recognize me?

He looked up blankly, giggling: Well, yes! You're a fairy, right? Do you know where my wife has gone? She doesn't come home anymore, I miss her so much! After saying this, he cried like a little child. She was taken aback by the series of questions and sudden cries, and was at a loss as to what to do.

But a classmate came over, pulled her up, and hurriedly walked away.

At the cafe, she listened to her classmate talk about what happened to him.

In the university days, he got back his junior high school girlfriend and was infatuated with her, and was extremely doting on her. But the woman seems to have little affection for him, such as the flow of his money, but also at every turn to lose temper and scold him, but he, surprisingly, can be tolerated. After graduation, the woman said that as long as he was willing to give her family out of a million, she would marry him. You know, this is not difficult, his family opened a hotel, there is plenty of money. Give the money, the woman married over, but all the time with him to make a fuss, no peace at home.

The woman disliked him, only to do housework to please her; dislike him incapable, only rely on the old man to live. He also felt so sluggish is not good, is also scolded by his wife vain, they went to the field to start a business, the results, you think, like his wife was damaged into his wife is honest without any breakthrough people how possible to start a successful business? A lot of debts, or his old man to pay. During this period, his wife found a good match and eloped with others. He could not bear such a big blow and went crazy.

She listened to his encounter, like watching the "contemporary story", feel so unreal. But, all this is from the mouth of classmates, that is indeed, is indeed true.

The shopping has become tasteless at the moment, so I hurriedly checked out and returned to my mother's house, where my husband was looking at her return on the sofa with a smile: tired, right? Did you have a good time? She smiled reluctantly: fine!

When she returned to the bedroom, her husband followed her in and put his arm around her: What happened to you? What's wrong? What's wrong?

She said, "Nothing. After a short pause, she looked up and asked: Do you think I'm talented? Do you think I am beautiful?

Her husband was stunned by her question, and then laughed: You are a famous writer, a real talent! If you say you are not talented, the ghosts will not believe you!